Check list;
1. Room clean - check
2. Work - check
3. Small surprise for him - check
4. Jdude - check
5. Packing - check
Yup, can go now....
** Very Excited **
Monday, July 06, 2009
Excited?
Yeah, i am very excited. I got holidays. Though it's only 3 days, but i look forward to this day so much. Very excited about it.... It's been 6 months plus that i didn't go KL since my last visit there. Can't wait to eat things that i've been hunger about and most important, i got to see him... and my church... and my friends.
Check list;
1. Room clean - check
2. Work - check
3. Small surprise for him - check
4. Jdude - check
5. Packing - check
Yup, can go now....
** Very Excited **
Check list;
1. Room clean - check
2. Work - check
3. Small surprise for him - check
4. Jdude - check
5. Packing - check
Yup, can go now....
** Very Excited **
Saturday, July 04, 2009
Yeah!
Finally…. I have finished my minutes writing that I get all stress up for three days. At last… it is finish. Let’s celebrate…
While I am doing the minutes, I found many interesting things include the below links. Maybe someone will be blessed by their nice website and pictures.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/tastefullyentertaining/
http://www.tastefullyentertaining.com/
But too bad that I think they stop updating the blog. It’s only up to March 2009.
**Thank God for His sufficient grace to finish the minutes on time**
While I am doing the minutes, I found many interesting things include the below links. Maybe someone will be blessed by their nice website and pictures.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/tastefullyentertaining/
http://www.tastefullyentertaining.com/
But too bad that I think they stop updating the blog. It’s only up to March 2009. **Thank God for His sufficient grace to finish the minutes on time**
Friday, July 03, 2009
Day dreaming
Writing only minutes of meeting for two days will really caused people to vomit. Why said so? Coz I hate to write minutes.
In our work life or study life, like it all not, there will be one or more tasks or subject you will hate it a lot. Last time while I was studying, I had a few subjects that I hate and when I am working now, the most dislike task that I have, is to write a long minutes of meeting that held one whole night and the next morning.
To keep the writing part interesting, I opened what I have recorded during the meeting and listen to it, while dreaming… Hehe… Yup, day dreaming is one of my release stress skill.
Low and behold, I found this;
What I dreamed about? That is up to you now… One picture speaks a thousand word.
** This is just nice! **
In our work life or study life, like it all not, there will be one or more tasks or subject you will hate it a lot. Last time while I was studying, I had a few subjects that I hate and when I am working now, the most dislike task that I have, is to write a long minutes of meeting that held one whole night and the next morning.
To keep the writing part interesting, I opened what I have recorded during the meeting and listen to it, while dreaming… Hehe… Yup, day dreaming is one of my release stress skill.
Low and behold, I found this;
What I dreamed about? That is up to you now… One picture speaks a thousand word.** This is just nice! **
Thursday, July 02, 2009
Busy = Messy office?
Many people will come into my office with one expression or a few lines of word,
Aiyo... you should tidy up your room….
Life has been pretty busy. When I step into my room with my laptop is on, how do my surrounding looks like actually don't really matter anymore. With this kind of mess, some people will called it, ‘organize in the midst of mess’. As long as I still manage to find my things, I am ok with it.
With work like mountain and time pass like rocket, it's really hard to have the mood in cleaning and tidying up my office. To be very honest, my office will tell how busy I am. After a year of getting difference comments, I cleaned it last week.
A photo of before and after to show some different;
Thought it’s not that tidy up to my standard, but it’s better than nothing. At least I also feel better going back to office and work now. Hehe..
**Busy = messy office? **
Aiyo... you should tidy up your room….
Life has been pretty busy. When I step into my room with my laptop is on, how do my surrounding looks like actually don't really matter anymore. With this kind of mess, some people will called it, ‘organize in the midst of mess’. As long as I still manage to find my things, I am ok with it.
With work like mountain and time pass like rocket, it's really hard to have the mood in cleaning and tidying up my office. To be very honest, my office will tell how busy I am. After a year of getting difference comments, I cleaned it last week.
A photo of before and after to show some different;
Thought it’s not that tidy up to my standard, but it’s better than nothing. At least I also feel better going back to office and work now. Hehe..
**Busy = messy office? **
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Journey of waiting
I always used to say that waiting hurts. And it always hurt. To wait on something that you don’t know will happen or not, actually takes a bigger faith than eyes can see. Recently, I realize that everyone in their life, there is something that they wait for… something that they always hope for. Some people wait for ‘the one’. Some people wait for someone to propose. Some people wait for someone to believe in Christ. Some people wait for a life time opportunity. Some people even wait for time to pass. In everyone’s life, we all wait for something, wait for someone, and wait that things will happen. Waiting will always be a season of life. We all will always wait for something in every season of our life. The things that we wait for will change but we are still waiting.
Waiting always hurts but in the journey of waiting, will bear the fruit of patient
** Journey of waiting **
Friday, June 26, 2009
A lovely gift from a dearly friend
Last night, I received a sweet pack of gift from a dearly friend of mine that went for holiday.
She bought me;
# A grey colour dress
# Two belts for the dress
# An artificial bread
I LOVED THE BREAD. Smells like real bread too. It is just so cute… And when I look at the bread, I will smile.
** Love the gifts, Love the giver even more **
She bought me;
# A grey colour dress
# Two belts for the dress
# An artificial bread
I LOVED THE BREAD. Smells like real bread too. It is just so cute… And when I look at the bread, I will smile. ** Love the gifts, Love the giver even more **
Friday, June 12, 2009
Stress!
Everyone will have the opportunity to experience stress. Maybe not everyone… Some experience it but have no idea what that called. But still, everyone will face the feeling of stress. As I look through the dictionary of Cambridge the meaning of stress is;
#Stress - great worry caused by a difficult situation, or something which causes this condition
I’ve been pretty busy these two months. Before the clergy wives’ retreat, I have to prepare for it. After that, I have to prepare for in-house clergy training. Now, I am still in the midst of preparing.
With such an amount of work, late sleep, in orderly time for meal, people expectation, worry of not doing it right and so on ….really caused me tired and emotional unstable. Maybe also because my period is around the corner, mood swing is very normal.
To release stress;
#1 Pray
#2 Listen to sermons
#3 Sleep
#4 Watch a funny movie and laugh about it
#5 Hang out with close friend or someone that I love
#6 Read people’s interesting Blog and update mine
#7 Do my plan 2
#8 Plan a holiday
#9 Day dreaming with beautiful scenery
#10 Listen to song favorite music
#11 Shopping – provided money is available
#12 Eat something that I wish and like
As for now, I choose to update my blog…
** Stress & tired! **
#Stress - great worry caused by a difficult situation, or something which causes this condition
I’ve been pretty busy these two months. Before the clergy wives’ retreat, I have to prepare for it. After that, I have to prepare for in-house clergy training. Now, I am still in the midst of preparing.
With such an amount of work, late sleep, in orderly time for meal, people expectation, worry of not doing it right and so on ….really caused me tired and emotional unstable. Maybe also because my period is around the corner, mood swing is very normal.
To release stress;
#1 Pray
#2 Listen to sermons
#3 Sleep
#4 Watch a funny movie and laugh about it
#5 Hang out with close friend or someone that I love
#6 Read people’s interesting Blog and update mine
#7 Do my plan 2
#8 Plan a holiday
#9 Day dreaming with beautiful scenery
#10 Listen to song favorite music
#11 Shopping – provided money is available
#12 Eat something that I wish and like
As for now, I choose to update my blog…
** Stress & tired! **
Thursday, June 11, 2009
The first time feeling…
Tonight, I didn’t stay back in worship practice to practice together with them but I have to rush back to the office to continue what I have left behind just now. The feeling of leaving the 4 new dancers that I have trained them for all these while give such a heavy heart. This coming Sunday, 2 out of the 4 will dance at 10am English service. Before I left, I think most of the dancers will felt that I am like a mother that nag a lot.
Remember to practice… Remember to lift your hand up high… smile while you are dancing and smile with me when I am smiling with you… Don’t play around but practice well… Wear white color shirt… Please teach her if she cannot follow.. Don’t lead too fast… Don’t put too hard pattern.. Don’t talk while practicing… etc…
I kinda felt the feeling of a mother. Can they do well? Will they be ok when I am not around? I worry about the one that lead them this week cannot control that many kids. Many questions running around my head. And yes… They are all kids. That’s why I worry. But not the one that leads them in dancing.
Overall, I think they will practice at home and do well in the worship. Sometimes, we all just need a bit pressure to see where we are heading to and to improve.
** The first time feeling **
Remember to practice… Remember to lift your hand up high… smile while you are dancing and smile with me when I am smiling with you… Don’t play around but practice well… Wear white color shirt… Please teach her if she cannot follow.. Don’t lead too fast… Don’t put too hard pattern.. Don’t talk while practicing… etc…
I kinda felt the feeling of a mother. Can they do well? Will they be ok when I am not around? I worry about the one that lead them this week cannot control that many kids. Many questions running around my head. And yes… They are all kids. That’s why I worry. But not the one that leads them in dancing.
Overall, I think they will practice at home and do well in the worship. Sometimes, we all just need a bit pressure to see where we are heading to and to improve.
** The first time feeling **
Monday, June 08, 2009
Clergy Wives' Retreat
I learn tremendously in this retreat. Not that I am a clergy wives’ but I was there as a support staff. Someone that runs here and there in order to make sure things are in order and they can have a great service. With all the busy in hand, I still manage to enjoy myself. I saw most of them love the retreat and they all have a lot of fun. Even I have a lot of fun. The words are powerful and the workshop and amazing. They get surprises from here and there each day and gifts to be taken home with them. Not only them, I got surprises too… Haha… The first night was an opening dinner in Bishop’s house. The second day of the retreat, we all have the privilege of getting ourselves colored up and ready for a photo shot by an excellent and gifted photographer, Louis Pang. I got my first portrait and it was taken by Louis Pang. What a blessing!
Tada….
In the afternoon, we learn about colors. What colors that suits everyone and looks best on each of us. The third day, we continue with learning colors and grooming. How to play with colors to make you look suitable for the occasion. In the afternoon, they have their flower arranging workshop while I prepare the night session.
With these three nights, not only that I enjoy but I have a lot of fun making new friends and it my honor to serve them. I learned about inner beauty and outward beauty. And most important and out of my expectation, I am refreshed also. God is always good. Even though I am only supporting there, but he bless me too. Not only with all the tips for outward and inward beauty but what I have been searching for, is answered by Him. God is always great.
** Refreshed **
Tada….
In the afternoon, we learn about colors. What colors that suits everyone and looks best on each of us. The third day, we continue with learning colors and grooming. How to play with colors to make you look suitable for the occasion. In the afternoon, they have their flower arranging workshop while I prepare the night session.
With these three nights, not only that I enjoy but I have a lot of fun making new friends and it my honor to serve them. I learned about inner beauty and outward beauty. And most important and out of my expectation, I am refreshed also. God is always good. Even though I am only supporting there, but he bless me too. Not only with all the tips for outward and inward beauty but what I have been searching for, is answered by Him. God is always great. ** Refreshed **
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
The best week ever?
Put aside a busy schedule and never ending work… I can say that I have the best week even although the week has not ended yet but positive attitude, brought out the great rest of the days.
#1: He spent a lot more time with me than the usual weeks. Due to his and mine busy schedule, we talked like almost 5 minutes a call each day. But this week, it’s different
#2: I am blessed with some free lunch and dinner
#3: My G900 is coming back after about a month away from me to the mobile clinic to repair
#4: My necklace is coming back to me also after about 6 months repair
The best time I have, is that we are in great mood and everything we talked, manage to click it on. I miss this for awhile….
Best time? I think so…
**Great and wonderful days**
#1: He spent a lot more time with me than the usual weeks. Due to his and mine busy schedule, we talked like almost 5 minutes a call each day. But this week, it’s different
#2: I am blessed with some free lunch and dinner
#3: My G900 is coming back after about a month away from me to the mobile clinic to repair
#4: My necklace is coming back to me also after about 6 months repair
The best time I have, is that we are in great mood and everything we talked, manage to click it on. I miss this for awhile….
Best time? I think so…
**Great and wonderful days**
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Overall
The past few weeks I was pretty busy. Not only busy, but I lost the momentum of keeping my blog updated. Hmm…. Sometimes, keeping up the momentum is tiring. I guess it’s good to have myself stop writing but to think a little bit more.
I’ve been back to my hometown on last Sunday to have another fun family time being together. Hmm… Interestingly, when I have holiday, I tend to be lazy. Other than sleep and eat, I’ve watched 10 movies which include Camp Rock, The Journey to the Center of the Earth, Tale of Despereaux, Inkheart, Yes Man and so on…. I can’t even remember the name of the movies that I watched.
Back to a comfort zone is really comfort. Sometimes, it’s too comfort… So far, I get myself rested and try to get myself refreshed also.
Recently, facebook have this how much you know certain person kind of quiz. I took some of it. Without my expectation, some I scored quite high. Meanwhile, some I scored unexpected low. It keeps me stop and thinks for awhile. Hmm… I guess I really think a lot recently.
As I quietly thought about it, this quiz should be something really fun about it. Even those who are not so into facebook will also try to create some quiz and try to find out how much other people know them. Hmm… this should be very interesting for me. But all I felt was something that is very unusual from what I expect myself to feel. Am I a closed book now?
Hmm…. I guess I am complicated after what I’ve been through.
**Overall**
I’ve been back to my hometown on last Sunday to have another fun family time being together. Hmm… Interestingly, when I have holiday, I tend to be lazy. Other than sleep and eat, I’ve watched 10 movies which include Camp Rock, The Journey to the Center of the Earth, Tale of Despereaux, Inkheart, Yes Man and so on…. I can’t even remember the name of the movies that I watched.
Back to a comfort zone is really comfort. Sometimes, it’s too comfort… So far, I get myself rested and try to get myself refreshed also.
Recently, facebook have this how much you know certain person kind of quiz. I took some of it. Without my expectation, some I scored quite high. Meanwhile, some I scored unexpected low. It keeps me stop and thinks for awhile. Hmm… I guess I really think a lot recently.
As I quietly thought about it, this quiz should be something really fun about it. Even those who are not so into facebook will also try to create some quiz and try to find out how much other people know them. Hmm… this should be very interesting for me. But all I felt was something that is very unusual from what I expect myself to feel. Am I a closed book now?
Hmm…. I guess I am complicated after what I’ve been through.
**Overall**
Thursday, May 07, 2009
Encouraging?
When you thought that you have done the best and give the best, actually… you have only managed to go though stage 1 in level 2.
**Or Discouraging??? Hmmm....**
**Or Discouraging??? Hmmm....**
Wednesday, May 06, 2009
I pray...
Sometimes we have no words to comfort
Sometimes we are helpless
When people around can’t give the comfort and peace that we long for
There is only God will understand the feeling
Only God know the pain
Only God read the emotions
Lord, I pray that your comfort with be with him and his family. Only your peace and comfort he and his family longs for. In Jesus name I pray, amen.
** I pray... **
Sometimes we are helpless
When people around can’t give the comfort and peace that we long for
There is only God will understand the feeling
Only God know the pain
Only God read the emotions
Lord, I pray that your comfort with be with him and his family. Only your peace and comfort he and his family longs for. In Jesus name I pray, amen.
** I pray... **
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Happy Birthday Jenny!
When age started to get bigger and bigger, different people will start to react differently. This year, I have this feeling of trying not to let people know that my birthday is today. Especially in a big group of people. I just feel weird… Maybe as I grow older, celebrating birthday is no longer a request. Normal routine still has to be on. Have to work, have to eat, have to sleep and nothing so special about it. The specialty of this day should be some close friends around and just a simple lunch or dinner. That is good enough. To have a few close friends to sit around and enjoy the fellowship is really something that is so hard to do because everyone has their own schedule and to make up one day for that fellowship, will always be someday special for someone. That is birthday. Well, today I didn’t get that but I am happy too. Many people greet me Happy Birthday and indeed, I have a great and happy day. I have a great birthday gift from him and I love it because it’s priceless. I have a great breakfast fellowship with my mentoring leader. Although just a short one but it’s good enough. I have a great and expensive lunch with my ex-colleague and we enjoy the fellowship. I have a great night in the youth because they surprise me with closing all the lights and out of the blue my picture is on the screen when I thought we have a video clip to promote on something else and the cake came in and they sang Happy Birthday. Although I feel weird but I am grateful for what they have prepare. This is it… another year has past and I am one year bigger.
** Happy birthday Jenny **
Last day of 24th
I spend it in the dark for an hour and half because out of electricity. Wow… New stuff… I never spend my last few minutes/hours in a dark before I reach 25th.
** Interesting… **
** Interesting… **
Friday, April 24, 2009
I’m happy today
Today, I woke up by a dear old friend of mine which he didn’t called me for months
Today, I got my first 25th years old birthday present that is a chocolate… love it, love it so much and I am very happy when I got it
Today, I also got my second present which I never expected to get any gift this year from 3 dear colleagues
Today, I learn that suffering is to prepare you for a bigger task. Suffering is good
Today, I feel something that I have no been feeling for quite some time
Today, I’m happy…
Never expect anything from anyone because I only expect some simple greetings and that will be it. God is always good… Out of no expectation, you might get some surprise. In fact, expect less… happier I will be….
** I’m happy **
Today, I got my first 25th years old birthday present that is a chocolate… love it, love it so much and I am very happy when I got it
Today, I also got my second present which I never expected to get any gift this year from 3 dear colleagues
Today, I learn that suffering is to prepare you for a bigger task. Suffering is good
Today, I feel something that I have no been feeling for quite some time
Today, I’m happy…
Never expect anything from anyone because I only expect some simple greetings and that will be it. God is always good… Out of no expectation, you might get some surprise. In fact, expect less… happier I will be….
** I’m happy **
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Disappointed
I have lost count of how many times that I felt this feeling.
When I expect, I get disappointed….
Then I try my best not to expect, I felt the same… So what’s the difference?
I even learn not to trust just to save myself from it…
Man may fail me, but God never…
**Disappointed**
When I expect, I get disappointed….
Then I try my best not to expect, I felt the same… So what’s the difference?
I even learn not to trust just to save myself from it…
Man may fail me, but God never…
**Disappointed**
Monday, April 20, 2009
I have fun
I have a great day last night… First of all it because we seldom have English Zone Staff gathering and also I seldom can see the other fun side of those serious people that I worked with. Last night I have fun and it felt like ages I never laugh like what I laughed last night. The ice breaker was very simple and yet we all laugh aloud. It’s a beautiful moment when you can only heard laughter all around you. Even though it’s only for a short period, but that moment can refresh me for quite some time.
After last night, today I had fun too. Today I have the opportunity to face my nightmare. Even though I didn’t manage to rid of it but I get other things which I learned. I learned that it’s a journey. Again it remind me that sometimes, it’s not the result that matter but the process I go though will able to bring my personal relationship with Him into another level.
So ya… I learn to have fun again.
** Refreshed **
After last night, today I had fun too. Today I have the opportunity to face my nightmare. Even though I didn’t manage to rid of it but I get other things which I learned. I learned that it’s a journey. Again it remind me that sometimes, it’s not the result that matter but the process I go though will able to bring my personal relationship with Him into another level.
So ya… I learn to have fun again.
** Refreshed **
Saturday, April 18, 2009
I have new dream now!
As i was trying to search something online, i found something else. Something interesting and insanely beautiful...Wow...
If i got this kind of cake, i really don't know what to say. I guess i will not eat also coz it's just too nice. Now i have new dream...**Nice**
Friday, April 17, 2009
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Lord, hear my cry….
Lord, hear my cry…. When I can only find comfort in You
Lord, hear my cry…. When I can only find back the feeling of love from You
Lord, hear my cry…. When I have no words but tears
Lord, hear my cry…. When I need no one else but You
Lord, hear my cry…. The one that ones a strong person
Lord, hear my cry…. The one that ones a positive and happy person
Lord, hear my cry…. The one that ones found favors in your eyes
Lord, hear my cry…. Because you are my God, my stronghold, my shelter and my refuge
** Lord hear my cry…**
Lord, hear my cry…. When I can only find back the feeling of love from You
Lord, hear my cry…. When I have no words but tears
Lord, hear my cry…. When I need no one else but You
Lord, hear my cry…. The one that ones a strong person
Lord, hear my cry…. The one that ones a positive and happy person
Lord, hear my cry…. The one that ones found favors in your eyes
Lord, hear my cry…. Because you are my God, my stronghold, my shelter and my refuge
** Lord hear my cry…**
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Tuesday - Day off
Yesterday was my day off which I look forward so much because I have been working two weeks in a roll without having break. As I look forward to it, of course I will also plan for it. Get myself enough rest, wake up and study Theophostic, watch one movie and work on some of the stuff. Well, everything has planned but it doesn’t go according to my plan. I end up having enough rest and shopping in One Borneo.
So, I went One Borneo with my dear housemate. Basically is to accompany her and we have a lot of fun. We saw the mushroom decoration…
And I found a cheese burger phone
And a cheese burger saving tank
Weird? But I think it’s interesting…
Last but not least, I bought three pairs of shoes… Ta da…
With two pairs of Vincci and one pair of Chales and Keith for only RM138 for three? Cheap, nice and reasonable? I think so… God is always good. He answers prayer… Yeah… I forgot how nice it feel to shop... It's like ages i didn't go shopping and buying pretty and reasonable price thing is so fun.
** God is always good **
So, I went One Borneo with my dear housemate. Basically is to accompany her and we have a lot of fun. We saw the mushroom decoration…
And I found a cheese burger phone
And a cheese burger saving tank
Weird? But I think it’s interesting… Last but not least, I bought three pairs of shoes… Ta da…
With two pairs of Vincci and one pair of Chales and Keith for only RM138 for three? Cheap, nice and reasonable? I think so… God is always good. He answers prayer… Yeah… I forgot how nice it feel to shop... It's like ages i didn't go shopping and buying pretty and reasonable price thing is so fun. ** God is always good **
Thursday, April 09, 2009
Currently
Currently I have grown round… Period? Or too many rich? Hmm…
Currently I lost my interest in Heroes Season 3
Currently I didn’t sleep well
Currently I am interested in Germany
Currently I am so into blogging and making my blog pretty and fun to browse
Currently I am thinking should take more pictures with him when we are together
Currently I have a serious thought of getting myself 1000 piece of puzzle
Currently I get flu fast
Currently I am having short term plans
Currently I like to eat
Currently I am so keen into handmade things.. Craft?
Will you look at that… isn’t it lovely? Well, looking and doing is totally different things
**Currently**
Currently I lost my interest in Heroes Season 3
Currently I didn’t sleep well
Currently I am interested in Germany
Currently I am so into blogging and making my blog pretty and fun to browse
Currently I am thinking should take more pictures with him when we are together
Currently I have a serious thought of getting myself 1000 piece of puzzle
Currently I get flu fast
Currently I am having short term plans
Currently I like to eat
Currently I am so keen into handmade things.. Craft?
Will you look at that… isn’t it lovely? Well, looking and doing is totally different things**Currently**
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
Today is a miracle…
Why? Because today I ate lunch with Pei San. Hahaha… and she bought me Starbucks. Miracle? I think so…
** Glad that we can have some fellowship**
** Glad that we can have some fellowship**
I need new shoes
I seriously need to shop for some new shoes. New working shoes... Comfortable, nice, long lasting and cheap...Okla, not cheap la.. at least reasonable and worthwhile price.
Go online and search the type that i think i will look nice on it and here it is....
Hmm... Should go shopping. I miss shopping with some of my dear friends back in KL. We always have lots of fun shopping together. And i miss KL. I totally know where to get great shoes and reasonable shoes in KL. As in KK... hmm... i'm not so sure.
**I need shoes**
Go online and search the type that i think i will look nice on it and here it is....
Hmm... Should go shopping. I miss shopping with some of my dear friends back in KL. We always have lots of fun shopping together. And i miss KL. I totally know where to get great shoes and reasonable shoes in KL. As in KK... hmm... i'm not so sure.**I need shoes**
Monday, April 06, 2009
Last Saturday…
I have this mood to make an origami box… So, I tried it out;
This is the reference
Manage to get the box
And the cover
Tada…. Finish!
But low and behold, the cover is too big…Hehe
After two hour sleep, I try again and I did it. So happy….
** Yeah **
This is the reference
Manage to get the box
And the cover
Tada…. Finish!
But low and behold, the cover is too big…Hehe
After two hour sleep, I try again and I did it. So happy….
** Yeah **
Friday, April 03, 2009
Reflect
Serving in youth ministry reflected a lot of my own youth time. When I was still in my teenager time, problem will always be friends cannot be trusted, to find a true friend is so hard, you thought she/he is a very good friend of yours but never know that they are the one that stab behind your back, boys and girls relationship, I was in love with this guy but he love another girl, or this girl is trying to seduce another guy, gossip is flying around, rumors about who and who is all over the place. Hahaha… when I reflect on it, I can only laugh at myself. Laugh because it was fun. To have all those memories, it builds me to who I am today. True friend is always hard to find, well….. No one can deny that. Some people would rather give up the chances of looking for one just because they fed up with their previous experience. It is just too heartbroken to again give your heart to someone that doesn’t know how to handle a fragile heart.
Nick Vujicic said that everyone craving for two things in their life that are longing for someone to love and someone to tell them everything will be ok. When I heard that, I totally agreed. Everyone desired someone to love them in return and hunger someone to tell them things will be ok when they themselves cannot convince themselves that it will be ok.
I guess things WILL be ok after all the “happening” in our teenager life. When you look back, it’s not that big deal after all and there are things you can laugh about because it’s part of your journey, it’s part of a growing period and one day, we all will be grateful of what God has in us because He always hold our future, always in control.
**Reflect**
Nick Vujicic said that everyone craving for two things in their life that are longing for someone to love and someone to tell them everything will be ok. When I heard that, I totally agreed. Everyone desired someone to love them in return and hunger someone to tell them things will be ok when they themselves cannot convince themselves that it will be ok.
I guess things WILL be ok after all the “happening” in our teenager life. When you look back, it’s not that big deal after all and there are things you can laugh about because it’s part of your journey, it’s part of a growing period and one day, we all will be grateful of what God has in us because He always hold our future, always in control.
**Reflect**
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
Coffee break
Sometimes it’s just good to stick around having coffee break and read some blog and suft some stuff that I like although work still lots, paper still all around my table and files are getting higher and higher in my room. So, ya… I am having my coffee break, trying to find something that I like, something that can inspire me again and can motivate me to continue to move forward with joy and strength from Him.
Guess what I found, http://www.lifewithoutlimbs.org/ inspired and motivated.
And … tada…
Muahahaha… look at it already make me so happy. I like stuff that looks bigger than normal size. If only I can get a giant chocolate, then I will be the happiest lady in town.
Pictures that we took together while he is here…
Till then... Miss him much...
** End of Coffee Break – back to work **
Guess what I found, http://www.lifewithoutlimbs.org/ inspired and motivated.
And … tada…
Muahahaha… look at it already make me so happy. I like stuff that looks bigger than normal size. If only I can get a giant chocolate, then I will be the happiest lady in town.Pictures that we took together while he is here…
Till then... Miss him much...** End of Coffee Break – back to work **
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Willing…
These few days, I came across with this word willing. Is a willing heart matters a lot? To get the things done is more important or to have a willing heart to get the things done more important?
If everyone waits for a willing person to get things done, then how the work will be done? But if you are doing it with unwilling heart, you will suffer but the things are still done. Which is more important?
God gave us free will choice but in this world and society, seems like not much free will choice you can practice. Willing or not willing, sometimes we have no choice. I wonder when willingness need to come in?
When you have love, you will be willing… but when you are not willing, does that mean you have no love anymore? Hmm… I really wish to know.
** Willing? **
If everyone waits for a willing person to get things done, then how the work will be done? But if you are doing it with unwilling heart, you will suffer but the things are still done. Which is more important?
God gave us free will choice but in this world and society, seems like not much free will choice you can practice. Willing or not willing, sometimes we have no choice. I wonder when willingness need to come in?
When you have love, you will be willing… but when you are not willing, does that mean you have no love anymore? Hmm… I really wish to know.
** Willing? **
Saturday, March 14, 2009
God is in control
Recently, as I browse through a friend's blog, it tenderly reminds me that after all, God is in control.
Don’t know when it started that I used to control what I could possibly control. I want things to go my way instead of His way. I take control of my work because I am the only one that has to bear responsible on my work if there is any mistake. I take control of my own lifestyle and health because I choose what to wear, what to eat and when to sleep.
With such a routine, I have slowly forgotten that there are many things out of my control. I could not control certain things. I could not control someone to be happy together with me. I could not control what people thought about me. I could not control someone to share the same sadness with me and thus, it caused me to fall. With this fall, again I am being reminded that after all, God is in control. I can love, but can never force someone love me in return. I can give, but can never force someone to sacrifice the same amount. I can walk but can never drag someone that not willing to walk with me. After all, God is in control, God gives everyone free will choice to choose the way they react, the live and their path.
** Let go, let God because God is in control **
Don’t know when it started that I used to control what I could possibly control. I want things to go my way instead of His way. I take control of my work because I am the only one that has to bear responsible on my work if there is any mistake. I take control of my own lifestyle and health because I choose what to wear, what to eat and when to sleep.
With such a routine, I have slowly forgotten that there are many things out of my control. I could not control certain things. I could not control someone to be happy together with me. I could not control what people thought about me. I could not control someone to share the same sadness with me and thus, it caused me to fall. With this fall, again I am being reminded that after all, God is in control. I can love, but can never force someone love me in return. I can give, but can never force someone to sacrifice the same amount. I can walk but can never drag someone that not willing to walk with me. After all, God is in control, God gives everyone free will choice to choose the way they react, the live and their path.
** Let go, let God because God is in control **
Saturday, March 07, 2009
Only God knows….
Most of the time, we will tend to advice too fast; give solution to fast and to say our own perspective too fast. Sometimes, someone only want a listening ear because we all grown up and go through journey of life in every different ways, experience different thing. But to find only listening ears is also this hard. Why?
Different people give different encouragement. I truly appreciate the encouragement and the effort of trying … But most of the time, I only want a pair of ears to hear my struggle, my foolishness, and my tears and yet, it's hard to find. No wonder most adults choose to keep everything themselves. They tried before to share but it become even bitter.
** Only God knows... **
Different people give different encouragement. I truly appreciate the encouragement and the effort of trying … But most of the time, I only want a pair of ears to hear my struggle, my foolishness, and my tears and yet, it's hard to find. No wonder most adults choose to keep everything themselves. They tried before to share but it become even bitter.
** Only God knows... **
Yesterday
Yesterday I have a lazy morning
Yesterday I had lunch with the Education Board Member
Yesterday I finally meet with Datuk Mary
Yesterday I was called to a wrong meeting and I stay the whole meeting
Yesterday I ate the most salty maggi because I mistakenly throw most of the soup away
Yesterday I have fun in cell group
Yesterday I experience a feeling that I never wanted to feel back
Yesterday I sleep with a heavy heart
** My yesterday **
Yesterday I had lunch with the Education Board Member
Yesterday I finally meet with Datuk Mary
Yesterday I was called to a wrong meeting and I stay the whole meeting
Yesterday I ate the most salty maggi because I mistakenly throw most of the soup away
Yesterday I have fun in cell group
Yesterday I experience a feeling that I never wanted to feel back
Yesterday I sleep with a heavy heart
** My yesterday **
Friday, March 06, 2009
What's the point?
Why do people want to know what happen and why certain things happen and when someone else explain, they seems not believe it and put someone else's reason into an excuses category? I really don't understand.
When it is sure that it is the explanation, certain people will still look at it as an excuse. Then what's the point that you ask and yet not listening? Weird believe…. Really weird…
Sometimes, we just cannot blame why people choose to be quiet than explaining because explain or not, the result will also be the same. What's the point?
** Really don't understand **
When it is sure that it is the explanation, certain people will still look at it as an excuse. Then what's the point that you ask and yet not listening? Weird believe…. Really weird…
Sometimes, we just cannot blame why people choose to be quiet than explaining because explain or not, the result will also be the same. What's the point?
** Really don't understand **
Thursday, March 05, 2009
An unhappy morning
I wake up with a heavy heart
Looking out for a reason
Why my heart is down?
Why I am feeling such a way?
I come before Him
Bringing my emotion
Asking Him to take it away
Why I feel such an emotion?
What is wrong?
I am still asking
Still searching
Still waiting
A down morning
Looking out for a reason
Why my heart is down?
Why I am feeling such a way?
I come before Him
Bringing my emotion
Asking Him to take it away
Why I feel such an emotion?
What is wrong?
I am still asking
Still searching
Still waiting
A down morning
Monday, March 02, 2009
Realization….
No 1 #
Drink one liter bottle of plain water every morning before you brush your teeth will really give good health and pretty skin
No 2 #
Emotion is the bridge to your belief
Which means that what you feel is based on the fact that you believe.
Fact 3 #
I feel that I have gain weight when I am back to hometown during Chinese New Year but most of the people said that I have slim down
Interesting?
Drink one liter bottle of plain water every morning before you brush your teeth will really give good health and pretty skin
No 2 #
Emotion is the bridge to your belief
Which means that what you feel is based on the fact that you believe.
Fact 3 #
I feel that I have gain weight when I am back to hometown during Chinese New Year but most of the people said that I have slim down
Interesting?
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
God is good…
It is such a great joy when you work and you felt bored of it and a friend of yours got you coffee bean's coffee that right straight at your door steps. I feel so blessed with someone delivering great stuff like this to me when I am screaming for something different out of the routine work.
So here it is… Yeah babe… Ice blended coffee stuff…
**I am blessed**
So here it is… Yeah babe… Ice blended coffee stuff…**I am blessed**
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
When it only left scar
In certain path of life, you will look back and give thanks. Sometimes, you will stare at the scar and thought back a lot of things that had happen. When it only left scar, it means that it's been quite some time. You touch it, you won't feel pain anymore.
But when I'm being reminded of how the incident happened, I started to feel the same pain. When I see the same sign and reaction, I started to cry it out to God. A level of faith is being tested; a level of trust is a doubt. Where is my faith, I asked? Where is my trust? And yet, I stood quietly.
Many times I stood quietly in front of Him. Without a word, He knows how I felt. Sometimes I cried, sometimes I only wish He is here, just to be with Him to remind myself that He is always faithful, always loving. If one day, He tells me that He can remove my scar too, I will be glad to let Him do so. I pray that without this scar, I won't be as terrify as I used to be.
We all know that happiness is a choice. Sometimes when you have decided to be happy today it doesn't mean that you will end up happy also. Although you try so hard to lift yourself up again, but in certain times, we need more than ourselves to lift us up.
**When it only left scar**
But when I'm being reminded of how the incident happened, I started to feel the same pain. When I see the same sign and reaction, I started to cry it out to God. A level of faith is being tested; a level of trust is a doubt. Where is my faith, I asked? Where is my trust? And yet, I stood quietly.
Many times I stood quietly in front of Him. Without a word, He knows how I felt. Sometimes I cried, sometimes I only wish He is here, just to be with Him to remind myself that He is always faithful, always loving. If one day, He tells me that He can remove my scar too, I will be glad to let Him do so. I pray that without this scar, I won't be as terrify as I used to be.
We all know that happiness is a choice. Sometimes when you have decided to be happy today it doesn't mean that you will end up happy also. Although you try so hard to lift yourself up again, but in certain times, we need more than ourselves to lift us up.
**When it only left scar**
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Tears
My best friend once told me that tears is a gift from God. God give us tears to express the feeling we have. Positive or negative thought, both can produce tears.
I have ones lost tears for certain period. No matter how sad am I, tears just seem can't to shed out. Not even one drop. As for now, tears seem like a little bit too much for me. I try to stop it from dropping down my cheek but it end up, even worst.
I do believe that tears are a gift from God because when you only have feelings and not a word, there is where tears will express the word.
Lord, count my tears because only you know my path, you know my pain.
**Tears**
I have ones lost tears for certain period. No matter how sad am I, tears just seem can't to shed out. Not even one drop. As for now, tears seem like a little bit too much for me. I try to stop it from dropping down my cheek but it end up, even worst.
I do believe that tears are a gift from God because when you only have feelings and not a word, there is where tears will express the word.
Lord, count my tears because only you know my path, you know my pain.
**Tears**
Saturday, February 07, 2009
When you can't breath
In any organization or company that you worked in, people expectation is something that you can never run away with because we all have expectation on certain things. Some expectation will be higher… some will slightly lower just for the sake of don't wish to get disappointed feeling deeper.
Sometimes, we didn't even realize that our expectation for certain people are getting higher and higher until they cannot breathe. Today I have the opportunity to experience it again that when you walk out from a room, you felt difficult to breathe just because of certain people expectation on you is so high that you can't say a word or should I say, you don't even know what to say.
I guess I should learn to expect nothing from anyone. After all, we are only human. Everyone have their own reasons, have their own difficulties…. Why push someone into the pool of high expectation when they don't even know how to swim?
**High expectation kill soul slowly**
Sometimes, we didn't even realize that our expectation for certain people are getting higher and higher until they cannot breathe. Today I have the opportunity to experience it again that when you walk out from a room, you felt difficult to breathe just because of certain people expectation on you is so high that you can't say a word or should I say, you don't even know what to say.
I guess I should learn to expect nothing from anyone. After all, we are only human. Everyone have their own reasons, have their own difficulties…. Why push someone into the pool of high expectation when they don't even know how to swim?
**High expectation kill soul slowly**
Friday, February 06, 2009
Let go, let God
Every early of the year, for sure that I will change the way my blog looks. This year, I would like to give brown a try. Recently, I am so in love with brown color. Still wondering why…
Though a bit late, mid of Feb is here but after the change, I just hope to have a refreshed look. i change the title as well from the previous one.
A preparation journey
*A journey that will mould me to prepare to be a faithful follower, a humble servant, a passionate lover, a supportive wife, a godly mother and a better person*
I think that my path will always be a preparation journey.
I have changed it to let go, let God. A very simple four word, let go, let God but I wonder, how far I could score if I want to put it into a test? For certain people letting go is like a piece of cake. As for me, I think I will need to take years to learn. I cannot deny that I am the kind that will hold on to someone overly tight, something too seriously. Maybe this new year, new chapter, God will lead me to see things differently when I learn to slowly loosen what I am holding on for ages.
This is it, new start, new year, new title, new path…
** Let go, let God**
Though a bit late, mid of Feb is here but after the change, I just hope to have a refreshed look. i change the title as well from the previous one.
A preparation journey
*A journey that will mould me to prepare to be a faithful follower, a humble servant, a passionate lover, a supportive wife, a godly mother and a better person*
I think that my path will always be a preparation journey.
I have changed it to let go, let God. A very simple four word, let go, let God but I wonder, how far I could score if I want to put it into a test? For certain people letting go is like a piece of cake. As for me, I think I will need to take years to learn. I cannot deny that I am the kind that will hold on to someone overly tight, something too seriously. Maybe this new year, new chapter, God will lead me to see things differently when I learn to slowly loosen what I am holding on for ages.
This is it, new start, new year, new title, new path…
** Let go, let God**
Thursday, February 05, 2009
The dark sky
Sitting in the airport, watching the dark sky. Only have the thought that my feelings is the same with the weather. I guess this feeling that will appear every time I'm in the airport, heavy dark weather that about to rain. Going back to a place which i called it lonely land. Though not literally.... Never expect that this time leaving them is this heavy for me. All of the sudden, i wish i could stay. I guess that's my only wish right now.
**Heavy feeling**
**Heavy feeling**
Thursday, January 08, 2009
Happy New Year!
Although a bit late but still... Happy New Year...
Yeah... Another new year.
~ Happy and Blessed new year~
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