Wish to see....Animals...

This morning, I was talking to Danny about animals that I wanted to see since I was a little kids….

First of all, I loves Wombat… they are cute.. Saw them before ones when I was 12 and ever since, I wish to see them again.
2. Sheep… Baby sheep - To reflect what the bible really means.
3. Llama – Because of the cartoon ‘The Emperor’s New Groove’
4. Meerkat – Because of the cartoon ‘Lion King’
5. Panda – Because I see them on news about how pity they are
6. Platypus – Last time study about this kind of animal
7. Penguin – Not really a fans but I still wish to see them if they are pretty

So far, only can think of 7... Maybe there is more. Big fans...Big fans...

** Big fans **

I found it…

To buy something special for someone special is really a hard thing to do. I always find difficulties in buying stuff for her. Not because she is bossy but she seems like has everything already. Although she always said it’s not about the gift, but it’s about the heart but I still find difficulties in searching one thing that suits her for any event.

After I browse through a friend’s blog, the first thing that came into my mind is…. At last, I found something that I can buy.
Loves to see her dress up with jewelry on. Then I will tell myself, see… I knew she looks pretty.

The prices are crazy… I literally got myself a shock when I know how much it cost. I shall find that shop when time has come. I feel so good when I finally found something. Just hope that it looks as beautiful as it is when I tried it on.

** At last….. **

SOMA weeks

We’ve been super busy for the pass weeks because of SOMA (Sharing Of Ministries Abroad). Preparation for it is always the busiest moment.

Let the pictures speaks more than word. Thanks to dearly friend of mine for her photo which I actually stole it.
SOMA notice board - when people come in, the first thing they see is this board. Then they will be guided to the registration counter.
The gang that try to solve unseen problem and plan the worst come to worst solution while trying to relax and release some "situation stress".

Awesome respond....

Consecration of the Assistant Bishop Service - Bishop Melter Tais (A humble man of God)

Continue with celebration dinner of the Assistant Bishop in the Magellan Sutera.


The whole conference is a success though we have rooms to improve. Due to busyness and trying to make things work, i have to confess that i didn't really get the message but i will buy the recording disc to listen. The preachers are awesome.

I have a great time fellowshipping with an old friend of mine which we seldom hang out because both of us have our own church and stuff to be madly busy about. Through this conference, I enjoy hanging with her. She offers great help. She has always been a great friend. There to listen and there to help. People that know her will want to treat her with lots of love because she is such a great friend.

** SOMA Weeks **

Today's Word from Heaven

God said, “You are my beautiful maiden. I have wonderfully and fearfully made you. I form every part of you with care and I love you with an everlasting love.”

[I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well – Psalm 139:14]

** Today's word **

Today’s dress…

Today I get some compliment that I am wearing a nice dress.
Yeah!!!!
All Credit goes to my best friend because she bought me this dress. She is always caring and loving. She has a great taste also…

Today is my second time wearing it because the dress is a bit short.

But I still love it. Love the dress and love the giver even more.

** Love my best friend **

So happy for them...

Oh my… Because he has cut his hair and we seldom see each other, I nearly don’t recognize him when I first get his mms. Oh my... Have to 3G with him more.
Congratulation for the newly weds. Happy and excited for them even we are far apart. We’ve been talked about them since last week. Hahahaha…. They are truly meant for each other.

Therefore what God has joined together, let man not separate. – Mark 10:9

** Congratulation!!! **

To get well soon…

Have to eat healthy…
Eat medicine on time…
Pamper myself a bit…Hehe…

I’m better now. At least the medicine from doc work and I hope that today I don’t have to carry tissues around.

** Getting better **

Flu...

Ha Chu!!!!!

Flu again... Oh man... I am confuse that i am flu or sinus. This keep coming back and the worst is, i overslept this morning because of the medicine that i ate last night and this morning, i still carry lots of tissues around. Oh my... The medicine is not working. Gosh... I guess i really need to pay a visit to the doctor's room.

Ah chu..... Oh.... Headache now... Lord, i cannot sick. SOMA is coming and i have no time to sick...

** Sneeze **

Another stressful day!

When I get stress, I draw and I draw during meetings… meetings that never end.

Work is getting more and more and I just don’t know should start from where.

** Stressful day **

Brown & Pink!

Today is match day...
My shirt and skirt matches my shoes color....

** Yeah!!! Brown & Pink **

Learning to love

Everyone will agree that love is the greatest gift of all. Some quotes said that to be able to love and to be love in return is the sweetest feeling. God is love… and God place a deep desire for us to receive love and to love others in our life.

But love is also the most difficult lesson to learn. As I drank my coffee and have a few biscuit for breakfast this morning, my mind started to mediates on yesterday sermon. These past few weeks, we’ve been studying the book of 1 John. Repeated sermon is shared and all summarize into one word – LOVE.

When you have everything and yet no Love, it’s equals to nothing. Interesting isn’t it?

Sitting there and listening to the sermon, a friend of mine said, “We read this passage before”. I replied, “Ya, 1 John is about love and love is the most difficult thing to learn on earth”. Then she said, “Ya, and you still love Danny that much.” I paused for awhile and said, “Ya, I still love him so much”.

Someone said that to love someone that you love is easier than to love someone that you don’t like at all. As for me, I think that to love someone that I love so much is difficult and to love someone that I don’t like at all is also difficult and I concluded it as, love is never easy.

I used to be someone that loves to share my thought. But as I grow, I started to be share less, talk less and even love less. When you experience pain before, it’s not that easy to just give your heart to someone because you learn to protect yourself and be defensive. The same goes to me. I find myself stop sharing when I started to realize that when I shared, people start to conclude me the way they thought. Even with the closest people in my heart, I seldom shared. With not sharing, I started to slowly withdraw myself from love. Love is the last opinion I will take in the whole relationship or friendship. These few weeks sermon has really gives me a big challenge and struggle.

** May God give courage **

Lord, have mercy….

One fine day…

A colleague walks into my room and we started to discuss on work. Out of no where, I asked her a question. Who is the hardest guy/gal that you have ever worked with?

She thinks for a while and replied;
Well… No one.. By God’s grace, everyone is quite easy to work with. The most difficult one to work with is I, myself.

I totally agreed… Sometimes, not other people that caused me problem in working together but it’s myself that stopping me from it.

Many times in life, we all know what need to do, what we should do, how should we do it and why we must do it. But how many people will really do what they know they should do and do what they need to do? Knowing what need to do and doesn’t apply to what you should be doing equals to not knowing it at all.

** Lord, have mercy… **

Healthy Week

It’s a healthy week for me this week while I continue to try to reduce the roundness of me.

** May God gives wisdom... **

Some people write to inspired

I love to read people’s blog. Some people will write their blog differently while others are writing their blog just like a daily routine thing about what they wear, where they go, what they eat and what happen on that day. I seldom read those kinds of blog but I do read also.

I realize that from the day I started to write blog, I started also to enjoy reading two or three blog of my friends. They share their journey and sometimes, it inspired me to think more than what eyes can read.

All the while, I’ve been following a blog of a friend. It’s really amazed that I started to read while he just started to work in the society to he started to change job and he change another job again. Then he planed his wedding, on his wedding, after his wedding, change job again and now into different chapter of life- being a father.

Reading his blog inspire me in many different ways. Need not many pictures or colors.

** Just a few line of word, will do **

Smiling….

Today, a dear friend of mine gave me this out of sudden…

My first reaction is… Aw.. Where you get that and who gave that to you? I’m happy for her because someone gave her such a huge chocolate bar.

Low and behold, she said, this is for you. I bought this for you. I was so happy… and jumped like a kids in 5 years old and I give her a big hug. Thought back about my reaction, I was a bit embarrassed of my reaction in front of all my kids while I am teaching them tambourine. It’s like I am about their age. Haha…

Anyhow, the blessings made my day. Not only this but before that, another friend gave me another pack of chocolate as well.

Today I am so blessed. I thank God for a great day and He knows how to make me smile. If someone said God is not a good God, I will never believe that because with He always knows how to put a smile on my face when I need it the most.

** He put a smile on my face**

God my provider

This month has been a tight month for me because of overused what I have budgeted. But God is always good. He provides my need. Mom sends a pack of food here and it’s more than enough for this month. While unpacking the stuff, grateful I thank God for a great Mom and for His love. God is always faithful. Thank Him for great parents, caring family.

And... I got Mango from Mom...Yeah!!!

** Family is the best **

Sanctuary

When my world was in darkness
You spoke Your Word, Night turned into day
Your beauty filled this place
When my world stood in silence,
You filled my heart, with songs that never end
Forever I will praise

Pre Chorus:
To think that the universe
Could not withhold Your Glory
You choose to live in me, I’m so amazed

Chorus:
And I worship You, Lord, My life in You restored
Here is my heart, Make it Your sanctuary
For nobody else but Jesus only You

Bridge:
You are faithful and true, glorious Lord
All my life, it is You I adore
You’ve touched my soul, Completed my world
I surrender to You

When this song was sung, I stood before Him with tears running down my cheek. I am really amazed, really grateful that I have no word to express but feelings and tears. I am amazed that He has chosen me. I am amazed that He loves me with tremendous love that I have no word but tears.

I always tell Him that I couldn’t feel His love… I couldn’t walk on without His love. I don’t know how to love without His love. Through this song, there are only tears that fall.

God loves me with an everlasting love that no word can describe. I am grateful…

** A simple song yet I felt it deep inside me **

Happy to be back

Another alpha, another Friday and another weekend are coming. Times flies super fast and the three days holiday pass just like that. I enjoy every moment that I have there in that place and I am happy to be back here as well.

I always miss him very much when I step down to KK but this time, it’s different. I still miss him just that this time, I can see our future clearer with faith. Separation is just for awhile and I am excited of what we will go through together again and learn together again.

** Excited for our future **

Excited?

Yeah, i am very excited. I got holidays. Though it's only 3 days, but i look forward to this day so much. Very excited about it.... It's been 6 months plus that i didn't go KL since my last visit there. Can't wait to eat things that i've been hunger about and most important, i got to see him... and my church... and my friends.

Check list;
1. Room clean - check
2. Work - check
3. Small surprise for him - check

4. Jdude - check

5. Packing - check


Yup, can go now....

** Very Excited **

Yeah!

Finally…. I have finished my minutes writing that I get all stress up for three days. At last… it is finish. Let’s celebrate…

While I am doing the minutes, I found many interesting things include the below links. Maybe someone will be blessed by their nice website and pictures.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/tastefullyentertaining/
http://www.tastefullyentertaining.com/




But too bad that I think they stop updating the blog. It’s only up to March 2009.

**Thank God for His sufficient grace to finish the minutes on time**

Day dreaming

Writing only minutes of meeting for two days will really caused people to vomit. Why said so? Coz I hate to write minutes.

In our work life or study life, like it all not, there will be one or more tasks or subject you will hate it a lot. Last time while I was studying, I had a few subjects that I hate and when I am working now, the most dislike task that I have, is to write a long minutes of meeting that held one whole night and the next morning.

To keep the writing part interesting, I opened what I have recorded during the meeting and listen to it, while dreaming… Hehe… Yup, day dreaming is one of my release stress skill.

Low and behold, I found this;What I dreamed about? That is up to you now… One picture speaks a thousand word.

** This is just nice! **

Busy = Messy office?

Many people will come into my office with one expression or a few lines of word,

Aiyo... you should tidy up your room….

Life has been pretty busy. When I step into my room with my laptop is on, how do my surrounding looks like actually don't really matter anymore. With this kind of mess, some people will called it, ‘organize in the midst of mess’. As long as I still manage to find my things, I am ok with it.

With work like mountain and time pass like rocket, it's really hard to have the mood in cleaning and tidying up my office. To be very honest, my office will tell how busy I am. After a year of getting difference comments, I cleaned it last week.

A photo of before and after to show some different;


Thought it’s not that tidy up to my standard, but it’s better than nothing. At least I also feel better going back to office and work now. Hehe..

**Busy = messy office? **

Journey of waiting

I always used to say that waiting hurts. And it always hurt. To wait on something that you don’t know will happen or not, actually takes a bigger faith than eyes can see. Recently, I realize that everyone in their life, there is something that they wait for… something that they always hope for. Some people wait for ‘the one’. Some people wait for someone to propose. Some people wait for someone to believe in Christ. Some people wait for a life time opportunity. Some people even wait for time to pass.

In everyone’s life, we all wait for something, wait for someone, and wait that things will happen. Waiting will always be a season of life. We all will always wait for something in every season of our life. The things that we wait for will change but we are still waiting.

Waiting always hurts but in the journey of waiting, will bear the fruit of patient

** Journey of waiting **

A lovely gift from a dearly friend

Last night, I received a sweet pack of gift from a dearly friend of mine that went for holiday.

She bought me;
# A grey colour dress
# Two belts for the dress
# An artificial bread

I LOVED THE BREAD. Smells like real bread too. It is just so cute… And when I look at the bread, I will smile.

** Love the gifts, Love the giver even more **

Stress!

Everyone will have the opportunity to experience stress. Maybe not everyone… Some experience it but have no idea what that called. But still, everyone will face the feeling of stress. As I look through the dictionary of Cambridge the meaning of stress is;

#Stress - great worry caused by a difficult situation, or something which causes this condition

I’ve been pretty busy these two months. Before the clergy wives’ retreat, I have to prepare for it. After that, I have to prepare for in-house clergy training. Now, I am still in the midst of preparing.

With such an amount of work, late sleep, in orderly time for meal, people expectation, worry of not doing it right and so on ….really caused me tired and emotional unstable. Maybe also because my period is around the corner, mood swing is very normal.

To release stress;
#1 Pray
#2 Listen to sermons
#3 Sleep
#4 Watch a funny movie and laugh about it
#5 Hang out with close friend or someone that I love
#6 Read people’s interesting Blog and update mine
#7 Do my plan 2
#8 Plan a holiday
#9 Day dreaming with beautiful scenery
#10 Listen to song favorite music
#11 Shopping – provided money is available
#12 Eat something that I wish and like

As for now, I choose to update my blog…
** Stress & tired! **

The first time feeling…

Tonight, I didn’t stay back in worship practice to practice together with them but I have to rush back to the office to continue what I have left behind just now. The feeling of leaving the 4 new dancers that I have trained them for all these while give such a heavy heart. This coming Sunday, 2 out of the 4 will dance at 10am English service. Before I left, I think most of the dancers will felt that I am like a mother that nag a lot.

Remember to practice… Remember to lift your hand up high… smile while you are dancing and smile with me when I am smiling with you… Don’t play around but practice well… Wear white color shirt… Please teach her if she cannot follow.. Don’t lead too fast… Don’t put too hard pattern.. Don’t talk while practicing… etc…

I kinda felt the feeling of a mother. Can they do well? Will they be ok when I am not around? I worry about the one that lead them this week cannot control that many kids. Many questions running around my head. And yes… They are all kids. That’s why I worry. But not the one that leads them in dancing.

Overall, I think they will practice at home and do well in the worship. Sometimes, we all just need a bit pressure to see where we are heading to and to improve.

** The first time feeling **

Clergy Wives' Retreat

I learn tremendously in this retreat. Not that I am a clergy wives’ but I was there as a support staff. Someone that runs here and there in order to make sure things are in order and they can have a great service. With all the busy in hand, I still manage to enjoy myself. I saw most of them love the retreat and they all have a lot of fun. Even I have a lot of fun. The words are powerful and the workshop and amazing. They get surprises from here and there each day and gifts to be taken home with them. Not only them, I got surprises too… Haha… The first night was an opening dinner in Bishop’s house. The second day of the retreat, we all have the privilege of getting ourselves colored up and ready for a photo shot by an excellent and gifted photographer, Louis Pang. I got my first portrait and it was taken by Louis Pang. What a blessing!

Tada….In the afternoon, we learn about colors. What colors that suits everyone and looks best on each of us. The third day, we continue with learning colors and grooming. How to play with colors to make you look suitable for the occasion. In the afternoon, they have their flower arranging workshop while I prepare the night session.With these three nights, not only that I enjoy but I have a lot of fun making new friends and it my honor to serve them. I learned about inner beauty and outward beauty. And most important and out of my expectation, I am refreshed also. God is always good. Even though I am only supporting there, but he bless me too. Not only with all the tips for outward and inward beauty but what I have been searching for, is answered by Him. God is always great.

** Refreshed **

The best week ever?

Put aside a busy schedule and never ending work… I can say that I have the best week even although the week has not ended yet but positive attitude, brought out the great rest of the days.

#1: He spent a lot more time with me than the usual weeks. Due to his and mine busy schedule, we talked like almost 5 minutes a call each day. But this week, it’s different

#2: I am blessed with some free lunch and dinner

#3: My G900 is coming back after about a month away from me to the mobile clinic to repair

#4: My necklace is coming back to me also after about 6 months repair

The best time I have, is that we are in great mood and everything we talked, manage to click it on. I miss this for awhile….

Best time? I think so…

**Great and wonderful days**

I always do...

Do I miss him? I always do....

** I always do...**

Overall

The past few weeks I was pretty busy. Not only busy, but I lost the momentum of keeping my blog updated. Hmm…. Sometimes, keeping up the momentum is tiring. I guess it’s good to have myself stop writing but to think a little bit more.

I’ve been back to my hometown on last Sunday to have another fun family time being together. Hmm… Interestingly, when I have holiday, I tend to be lazy. Other than sleep and eat, I’ve watched 10 movies which include Camp Rock, The Journey to the Center of the Earth, Tale of Despereaux, Inkheart, Yes Man and so on…. I can’t even remember the name of the movies that I watched.

Back to a comfort zone is really comfort. Sometimes, it’s too comfort… So far, I get myself rested and try to get myself refreshed also.

Recently, facebook have this how much you know certain person kind of quiz. I took some of it. Without my expectation, some I scored quite high. Meanwhile, some I scored unexpected low. It keeps me stop and thinks for awhile. Hmm… I guess I really think a lot recently.

As I quietly thought about it, this quiz should be something really fun about it. Even those who are not so into facebook will also try to create some quiz and try to find out how much other people know them. Hmm… this should be very interesting for me. But all I felt was something that is very unusual from what I expect myself to feel. Am I a closed book now?

Hmm…. I guess I am complicated after what I’ve been through.

**Overall**

Encouraging?

When you thought that you have done the best and give the best, actually… you have only managed to go though stage 1 in level 2.

**Or Discouraging??? Hmmm....**

I pray...

Sometimes we have no words to comfort
Sometimes we are helpless
When people around can’t give the comfort and peace that we long for
There is only God will understand the feeling
Only God know the pain
Only God read the emotions

Lord, I pray that your comfort with be with him and his family. Only your peace and comfort he and his family longs for. In Jesus name I pray, amen.

** I pray... **

Happy Birthday Jenny!

When age started to get bigger and bigger, different people will start to react differently. This year, I have this feeling of trying not to let people know that my birthday is today. Especially in a big group of people. I just feel weird… Maybe as I grow older, celebrating birthday is no longer a request. Normal routine still has to be on. Have to work, have to eat, have to sleep and nothing so special about it. The specialty of this day should be some close friends around and just a simple lunch or dinner. That is good enough. To have a few close friends to sit around and enjoy the fellowship is really something that is so hard to do because everyone has their own schedule and to make up one day for that fellowship, will always be someday special for someone. That is birthday.

Well, today I didn’t get that but I am happy too. Many people greet me Happy Birthday and indeed, I have a great and happy day. I have a great birthday gift from him and I love it because it’s priceless. I have a great breakfast fellowship with my mentoring leader. Although just a short one but it’s good enough. I have a great and expensive lunch with my ex-colleague and we enjoy the fellowship. I have a great night in the youth because they surprise me with closing all the lights and out of the blue my picture is on the screen when I thought we have a video clip to promote on something else and the cake came in and they sang Happy Birthday. Although I feel weird but I am grateful for what they have prepare. This is it… another year has past and I am one year bigger.

** Happy birthday Jenny **

Last day of 24th

I spend it in the dark for an hour and half because out of electricity. Wow… New stuff… I never spend my last few minutes/hours in a dark before I reach 25th.

** Interesting… **

I’m happy today

Today, I woke up by a dear old friend of mine which he didn’t called me for months
Today, I got my first 25th years old birthday present that is a chocolate… love it, love it so much and I am very happy when I got it
Today, I also got my second present which I never expected to get any gift this year from 3 dear colleagues
Today, I learn that suffering is to prepare you for a bigger task. Suffering is good
Today, I feel something that I have no been feeling for quite some time
Today, I’m happy…

Never expect anything from anyone because I only expect some simple greetings and that will be it. God is always good… Out of no expectation, you might get some surprise. In fact, expect less… happier I will be….

** I’m happy **

Disappointed

I have lost count of how many times that I felt this feeling.
When I expect, I get disappointed….
Then I try my best not to expect, I felt the same… So what’s the difference?

I even learn not to trust just to save myself from it…

Man may fail me, but God never…

**Disappointed**

I have fun

I have a great day last night… First of all it because we seldom have English Zone Staff gathering and also I seldom can see the other fun side of those serious people that I worked with. Last night I have fun and it felt like ages I never laugh like what I laughed last night. The ice breaker was very simple and yet we all laugh aloud. It’s a beautiful moment when you can only heard laughter all around you. Even though it’s only for a short period, but that moment can refresh me for quite some time.

After last night, today I had fun too. Today I have the opportunity to face my nightmare. Even though I didn’t manage to rid of it but I get other things which I learned. I learned that it’s a journey. Again it remind me that sometimes, it’s not the result that matter but the process I go though will able to bring my personal relationship with Him into another level.

So ya… I learn to have fun again.

** Refreshed **

I have new dream now!

As i was trying to search something online, i found something else. Something interesting and insanely beautiful...Wow...

If i got this kind of cake, i really don't know what to say. I guess i will not eat also coz it's just too nice. Now i have new dream...

**Nice**

Paris

One picture can speak a thousands word... Wow... Paris...I wish... I wish....

**Paris**

Lord, hear my cry….

Lord, hear my cry…. When I can only find comfort in You
Lord, hear my cry…. When I can only find back the feeling of love from You
Lord, hear my cry…. When I have no words but tears
Lord, hear my cry…. When I need no one else but You
Lord, hear my cry…. The one that ones a strong person
Lord, hear my cry…. The one that ones a positive and happy person
Lord, hear my cry…. The one that ones found favors in your eyes
Lord, hear my cry…. Because you are my God, my stronghold, my shelter and my refuge

** Lord hear my cry…**