A dream comes true…

I used to imagine how would it be like? Who would he be? What would he do?

On 16th March 2010, I able to taste what the feeling of a dream come true.
We had a beautiful dinner in Euro Deli restaurant. I was kinda hoping for it. As I ate my food, I hope I will cut something more than food. Well, it ended up just a normal dinner with an awesome environment and tasty food. It’s a bit costly than what we normally had. But it’s alright since it’s a celebration dinner.

After dinner, we went to a park called small genting somewhere in Ampang that able to see the night view of KL. I love that place. We used to go there quite often before the long distance relationship happens because I love to see beautiful view at night. We have a great time talking about what we have gone through as a couple in the past three years and the breakthroughs for our path. The Lord is good… He always is… As we talked about the old memories, both of us are grateful and amaze how God lead us together.

As I looked at my watch, it’s half past 11pm. He looked worried and kept smsing. I asked him not to worry so much about work after the long meeting that he had. Later on, he said, why not we go to another place that can see the KL night view too. I get so excited and we depart to another the next place.When we arrived there, the view was amazing… with an open air restaurant and the beautiful view. I stared at the view while trying to catch my breath from the long walk from the bottom to the top. Then, his friend gave him a dozen of roses and with one knee, he ask me to marry him. I heard lots of cheer because the restaurant was pack with people. I was so embarrass and overwhelm and I was speechless. I nod my head and he stood up gave me a hug.

With no ring but an Ipod, we are engaged. How do I feel? I feel overwhelm and like a dream come true.Now, we are engaged. Another chapter of our life together… As for the date… We will let you know… It will be another beautiful day.

This will be one of the meaningful day that I will remember with the awesome view, beautiful place and lovely friends around us to be happy together with us.

** Just like a dream come true **

Happy Easter

The Lord is Risen... He is Risen Indeed.

p/s: No idea why rabbit got to do with easter...

** Happy Easter **

A testimony

My name is Jenny Liau. I was born in Sandakan, Sabah in an ordinary Christian home with a great family. I have an elder sister and a younger brother. I was brought up by my mom. Since I was a little girl, my mom brought us to church. I know more about Christ through the faith of my mother and the stories that are told in Sunday’s school. Since young, I was being taught that God is my friend.

But I have not truly known him as a friend because many times I talk to him, he remain silence and when I try to listen to his reply, I felt asleep.

I grew up in a church knowing what I should do and what I shouldn't do. Most of the times, it has been a follow the rules kind of attitude than knowing it in my heart what it really means.

Since I was a little girl, God has been in my life but we don't really have a close relationship. If you ask me do i love Him? I surely do. But do i know him? Well… not really.

I have most of the encounter with God when I start to step out of my comfort zone, when I have to be alone in a foreign place leaving my parents and all my friends. My relationship with God started to built because I learned that He is my only refuge and comforter.

One of the most significant encounters with God was when I went though my life deepest struggle and the darkest moment of my soul. My heart was broken and I feel that my soul is lost. I couldn't find my way back. It's scary to feel broken and lost.

In that moment, the Lord shows me His promise and his comfort. For it is written that a broken and contrite heart, He will not despise. I manage to feel it with my heart knowing that He is with me. Every steps of the path, He carries me. I can even visualize it knowing that He carry me on His shoulder and my tears drop to His shoulder. I can feel that His heart is even more pain than mine seeing me going through what I have to go through. He is indeed my true friend and my comforter. When I can finally walk myself again, I can feel that He put me down from His shoulder and He hold my hand with a smile on His face assure me that everything will be alright because He is with me.

With this encounter, anything that I am going through now, I will not be afraid because He is with me. This encounter had built our relationship, had made me stronger and had given me the eternal promise that God will be with me and He will love me with His everlasting love. For nothing will separate us.

The changes in me are not the dramatic type but God has slowly lead me step by step from taking care of my since I am a baby to leading me slowly to know Him and now serving Him with what I have, with all I have.

The Lord is truly my God, my best friend, my refuge and my stronghold. In Him, I find peace and joy.

** My Saviour is Jesus Christ **

Stuck

Sometimes, I get stuck. What to write next? What is the first word that should be put on it to make it sound more professional? Stuck… Man.. I hate it when I am stuck.. Have to find high and low for that one word. There are really thousands of words in English words but due to my limitation, I get stuck. Man.. This is not good.

Sometimes, words just float in my mind and I can write smoothly in less than ten minutes. Read more, read more… Inspiration come more.. Come more…

How to continue… Oh Lord, please give the words… I am literally stuck with words now.

People said read more english word and watch more english movie, your english will improve.. Trust me, i am doing that..

** Stuck **

Pictures...

I am blessed that He gave us the opportunity to serve Him together as a family. Though we are not perfect but we willing to learn to love each other as who we are.
Together, we go through tears and joy.A nice picture. How i wish the person next to me is another him.
** Family **

Only I love you, enough to sustain a marriage?

As I was browsing through facebook, I remembered a very common advice that people will give that is, if he/she treat you good, that is enough.

I sat and have a moment to think.. Is it really enough? Can a marriage survive with only I love you? Only he/she treat you good?

As I grew up, my best friend’s mom told her that as long as your future husband doesn’t gamble, doesn’t drink, not a womanizer, you should start to count your blessing. Heard lots of story about someone else having affair problem, really lead me to believe what my best friend’s mom advice is true. Should count blessing if he/she treat you good…

As for me, I am preparing myself to be someone’s wife because I will be someone’s wife one day. To step into marriage only with 3 words, I don’t think it is enough. Marriage is always more than just 3 words.

Love only one person for the rest of my life… I guess marriage life is a love lifestyle. Well, I have not truly married yet… I guess this post will be continuing after I have reached certain chapter of life.

** By then, i will know... **

Sandakan~~

I went back to Sandakan on 13th February for Chinese New Year. It was so happening because my uncle from Australia has come back for a holiday after like 10 years the Liau siblings never meet. So, they have dinner at my home and have a reunion photo. My father has 11 siblings including him. Big family.. But not all of them are here that night. Other than the Liau family reunion, i have him here for the first time for CNY. Well, he went to Sandakan before last year, so that makes him the second time to Sandakan, the first time spending time with me in Sandakan and also the first time we celebrate CNY together after so long...Chinese New Year is always the time we all gather together as a family to have fun and fellowship.I miss spending time with my brother and sister. The three of us can have a great time together. As for now, we welcome the Wong into our family picture.Hehe...

** Chinese New Year 2010 **

CNY Mood

When you are in CNY mood, it’s really hard to concentrate to work.

So what I do? I search what kind of dress I should buy and what kind of blouse I should wear. Oh man.. searching for cloth is always hard for me.
Other than that, I found this… Cool ha.. Can convert pictures to something like this. This is just so cool. So, I spend some time doing this.
** So cool... **

English Zone Outing

Our English zone staff normally have outing ones in two to three months and we all LOVES the outing because we get to sty away from work topic, we have lots of laugher and fun together and we can have a refreshing time together.

Last Thursday, we went to a waterfall.
Before that, we drop by Bishop’s mom place and she is doing the ‘nyien kau’ in a traditional way. Cool~~~Then we have our first group photoAs usual, the kids will go in the water while my role is to take pictures.And the moms start their eating outing.Cynthia is really good in climbing rocks. She climbs up to the top of the hill. Wow… really impressive. * Clap hands* I did try but I failed. After that, we continue to take picturesAnd ended up in Vedablu for ice cream before we went home.
** Fun and exciting day**

Happy and Satisfied

I’ve been a blogger for more than 4 years now. Since 2007 onward, every year I will change the templates and the theme. So, this year… I choose something that is not provided by blogger setting. I used more than 4 hours to choose the right one and here it is… I finally found one that I am satisfied and happy. I have also saved the pictures of the previous templates that I have used for record purposes.

2006-200720082009

Though i don't update it everyday, but i still keep it alive. Hehe...

** Happy and Satisfied **

A year of faith

This year is the year of faith. Our church start with a series of faith in our sermon for a month and the first sermon is really good. Four points are shared - think faith, aim high, speak faith and practice faith. To put into practice is always the hardest but it challenges us to really take a big step of faith out.

With this year of faith, I change my theme from let go, let God to never give up. I believe that I have learned to let go and let God to do things that only He can do and only He can change. I will say it is not an easy saying to let go and let God. Some people took years to let go and let God. I took some years too. Last year, I tasted his greatness and love.

This year theme and focus is ‘never gives up’. I will say that I am a kind of person that will give up easily. To endure the never give up process; it took lots of endurance and faithfulness. It challenges me and tested my faithfulness. Sometimes, it’s not about the result but about the endurance of the process to never give up.

Never an easy lesson but God is good. He gives us things that we can bear and never give us things that are out of our lead.

** Never give up, faithfulness is the key **

What’s new?

In this New Year, what is new in your life? As for me, nothing much is so new about it except some new resolution, new goal, new vision and a new blackberry.

I’ve never stop busying until recently. From November last year, events have not stopped until recently. Now, I can sit down and drop down some words.

So last year, we have thanksgiving prayer meeting from 9pm to 12am.Really cool… The cathedral is filled with balloons. Each prayer that is prayed will release the balloon and it will fly up just like our prayer fly up to God.
Then, I have belated Christmas gift from one of the kids’ dancers that I taught them to present on Christmas day.
Later on, we have BSI Vision School opening follow with clergy conference in Tawau. This is the second time I went to Tawau. Tawau is a small town with great people and a huge house of prayer.After clergy conference, I have him coming here to study and a dear friend wedding in Christ Church. Some people around me commented that i look really happy and they never see me smile as happy as this before. In my heart i thought, i always smile but being together with him, i am really happy. Now, life back to normal with him went back to KL and our long distances continue. Another week, I’ll be going back to my hometown for Chinese New Year. That’s the happening part in the early of every year.

** New Year **

Our Daily Journey with God

## The truest friend does not doubt but hope ##

- 28th January 2010
- Reference taken from http://www.ourdailyjourney.org/2010/01/28/

** Our Daily Journey with God **

2010

Yeah!!! It's New Year... Happy New Year!!!

** 2010 **

The last day of 2009

It has been a year of great challenge and breakthroughs, tears and joy, struggle and growth, patients and prayer. Overalls, it’s a great year to count my blessing and name them one by one.

Next year… Cut a shorter hair? Or keep it long? Curl it? Or let it be?

All glory to Him

2nd year of Christmas in All Saints’ is exciting. First of all, all glory and honor be unto God as He has give me a creative choreograph that I able to teach the little dancers (5-11 years old) to perform their best on Christmas day. I didn’t manage to take photo because I’ve been running here and there making sure their costume is alright, everyone of them remembers the movement and they look good. Many people feedback that their dance is very nice and cute. All glory and praise be unto God.

Other than that, it’s also my joy to be able to serve with a great and humble dancer named Rachel Foon. She is a terrific dancer and she has a good heart. It’s really my pleasure to choreograph the dance with her for the Christmas Eve dance together with the three pretty Lo’s daughter. They are awesome. Able to adapt to the movement fast and they are so cute. Both of these dances have given me two months stress and tremendous time in practice. Thank God that it is all well performed and many people gave very good feedback. Again, all praise be to God. He deserves our best.
Christmas day has been a great day for me. Some people said that Christmas is about the joy of giving and sharing. Yesterday, I able to experience it. A dear friend of mine wanted to get the starbucks year planner so much and by the time she gets it, the smile on her face make us realize that the money we spent, is worth.At night, I have a great Christmas dinner and fellowship and playing Wii with the kids. Smile and laughter filled the whole day. I bought myself a pair of sandal for Christmas present. I also received a bible, a bag, a cup, a rabbit bank and chocolates as gift. Sure is a happy day…

** Be all glory unto Him **

2nd year of Christmas in KK !!!

May we all find joy in this beautiful day.

** Merry Christmas **

Giving thanks

Actually, to give thanks everyday is not an easy task. But I will always remind myself to give thanks when certain things break my heart after I been through some heart broken situation.

Yesterday, I get a very sad new and I cried after I heard it. Maybe for certain people, it doesn’t really matter because money can earn again but for me, it’s hard. I am not from a rich family and my parent has taught me to use money wisely. Whenever I see something that I love, many things will go through my mind. Questions such as worth or not, what it’s for, it’s a need or a want, when can I use this and it goes on.

But yesterday incident literally break my heart. I kept myself silent with tears dropping down.

In the few minutes of silent, I was amaze that I am counting my blessing and giving thanks. I give thanks that I able to experience the pain and the understanding. I give thanks that I understand that what matters is not the material but life. I give thanks that I able to see my own heart and I able to reflect myself with the situation that I am in.

In fact, it has strengthened me and reminded me again that money is not everything and God owns everything. He can give, he can take away. Will I still give thanks and trust Him? I found my answer.

It has deepened my trust in Him. Sometimes, things happen to inform us that actually, we are stronger than we think. God knows what we can take it but we don’t know.

** Stronger than you think **

Blame…

Why do people always find someone else to blame? Why? I really wish to know why. When things happen, it’s really easy just to point at so and so for not telling. So and so for not doing, so and so has not planned it earlier. And that so and so will try to defend because everyone play a role to make things work.

In the busiest months of the year, quarrel, blame, misunderstood and miscommunication are the things that can never be avoid. If so and so keep himself/herself silent, people will still stood and point and because so and so has not been explaining. Not explaining doesn’t mean so and so have to be blame or taking the blame. Sometimes, people stood silent only trying to make things less complicated and trying to solve more than complicated it.

Communication is two way street. The same goes to working with one another. How could you assume and when things got wrong, blaming for not telling, not planning, not knowing is always the first things that come out.

Being the leader is always the toughest. When certain unexpected things happen, the leader is the first one that should answer all the questions and explanation. The first one to blame, the last one to be appreciated. This is life I guess…

May God have mercy

** Blame **

December

December is the busiest month for us. With a pack Christmas schedule, I find myself having difficulties to have a relaxing day to blog about it. When I do, I wonder where to start. Not even reach half way of this writing, I have to leave my laptop behind and meet with someone else just before I forget something else.

Well, I guess this can give a clear picture of my past few weeks. After the refreshing and beautiful trip on Oct 09, coming back with a pack schedule with clergy meeting, standing committee meeting, ordination, confirmation service, haggai training continue with children worship conference, youth camp and coming children Christmas, youth Christmas, Christmas Eve service and Christmas day presentation and then follow with clergy retreat.

That’s my past few weeks and my future few weeks.

Till then… Merry Christmas

** December - the busiest month of the year **

What come to your mind?

A pictures speaks a thousand words. What come to your mind when you saw this pictures?

** Happy Marriage? **

Faithful

Today word:
Psalm 60

Today challenge:
Will you continue to be faithful in loving God when God has rejected you? Will you remain holding Him when he stops answer your prayer?

Future reminder:
Even when He disciplines you harshly, choose not to rebel and continue to hold on to Him and never let go because He never stop loving you. Those he loves, he will discipline them. Jenny Liau, you must always remember that.

** When faithfulness is tested, never let go **

Have I not done my best?

Have you ever encountered where you are place in a position that you are helpless? Well, these two weeks, I have encountered it.

I can proudly stand before God saying that I have really did my part, did my best and yet people doubted my best, doubted my ability and pushing blame towards me saying that I should have look into that or in a sense, I should learn that.

Work has been a lot like hills and insufficient time for everything is already a normal thing for me and yet with all the expectation without telling, assuming without communicating…. Lord, you judge…

I have been screaming because of tension for past few weeks, screaming for not enough time and screaming for everything is so packed. When someone started to point finger and not understand the situation that I am in right now, I am sorry that I will explode also.

** Have I not done my best? You judge, Lord…. **

Childlike Faith

Let me introduce this cute baby… His name is Ebenezer and he is Christina Foo’s first baby. He is adorable….

Observing a baby or a child, I have to admit that I have to tremendous lessons to learn from them. Having a childlike faith is really tough. The older you are, the harder you find yourself trusting people. It could be the side effect from your part hurt or you’re brought up. Childlike faith? I have it ones… But where it is now?

** Childlike faith **

Another day to ponder about His faithfulness

This morning, we have a new staff that joined our family… Yeah! The Lord answered one of our prayers. As I brief her about our office, introducing her to people around and telling her about the work that we all do… it reminds me the first day I came to work here. I still remember vividly. Its just like happened yesterday.

I cried all the ways here and I’ve been crying for months. Learning to adapt to the culture, the work, the people, the lifestyle…. Really tough but as time move really fast, this place has now become one of my comfort zones.

It’s good that sometimes God stop me for awhile and sits me down to think rather than going all the way heading no where. By the time I realize that, maybe I have already reached 30 years old.

It’s has been a year and 5 months. Lots of unanswered questions have been answered. Lots of unclear pictures are slowly become clearer. Walking under the umbrella with Him is really hard. Lots of obedient is required, lots of sacrificing is requested but I know He is still right there beside me with His colorful umbrella.

** Another day to ponder about His faithfulness **

26th

In a very short period of time, I will be reaching 26th years old. Scary? I think so too… I still remember when I was a little kids, I wish I was 25th back then. I thought that by the age of 25th, I will have a stable career, fixed income, I own a car myself and I can financially support my family.

Well, life is not as smooth sailing as I thought. I even wish that I’ll be married in the age of 25th. Hahaha… Thinking back about it really brings laughter about how naïve and simple I thought life was.

As 2009 reaching to an end, planning for next year started to begin. Age started to catch up and friends around started to have their own family.

I sat down and think… I am going to be 26th…. What have I achieved so far?

** Going to be 26th? So fast? **

16th October 2009

It's another month to be grateful... I miss him very much~~

** 16th October 2009 **

Persistence

Perseverance is another tough path of life. Selected people will be able to taste the pain of perseverance but not everyone. Talking to a dear friend of mine making me realize that coming out from an almost ‘perfect’ family will also product two different mindset of people. The same childhood and yet one that is always happy and smooth sailing in his life while another one is filled with struggle and persistence.

Ever since I choose to walk this path, my path is filled with perseverance in pain. Crying out to God and asking..... How long more Lord? How long more? And yet…. I always get not even a word answer.

Crying for some people to repent and return to God…. Crying for generation to see Him… I will also ask.. Lord, how long more should we pray… That generation will turn back to you? How long more, should we pray?

Persistence in prayer is a new lesson for me in this path and I think in life journey, everyone of us will go through the persistence in prayer… and yet…. Sometimes, I will ask God, how long? How long more, Lord?

** Persistence in prayer **