There is hope...

Sometimes, working in my field makes me forgot that there is grace, there is hope, and there is Jesus. Today, I thank God that I meet someone like Him. Someone that will not judge me or condemn me for things that I have not do or things that I have not done enough but to care for me and to care about my journey.

Working here for more than 2 years... sometimes, I get really tired and word of encouragement is the first thing I need but I don’t normally get it. Feeling of dry and empty seems like a normal issue and I have to learn to stand up myself and be strong again.

Today I realise that there is hope, there is grace. God is good. When I nearly forgot that I have Jesus, he shows me one with sending a person to encourage and to care. To always know that there is grace from God.

** May I be strong again **

First time cooking...

One of my listing in to do task is cook new stuff... And first time trying..

So, ta da..First day, I boiled salted vegetable and taufu. Successful!!!~~~ He said I scored 10 out of 10.

Second day lunch, I fried mihun. This is a failure. I put in long bean which taste weird... Consider this a failure through still can eat.
Then continue with dinner, suppose to be lotus root and peanut soup but I bought wrong stuff that turn out to be lotus root and cranberry bean soup. He said nice too... So, it’s ok.. Consider pass.
Third day, dinner that is today. I tried steam egg with carrot that taught by my dearly ex-housemate. Low and behold, it turn out become like this. It tastes nice though it look ugly.
The first time I fried chicken too and successful. It turn out taste really nice and very well cooked. Overall, I started to have fun in cooking and trying out new stuff. Some learn from friends and moms. Some learn from my common sense.

Next, gonna try master it and use lesser time.

** Started to enjoy **

Out of office...

I love 'out of office' leave... With a cup of coffee and the bible and my favourite food... This is so nice.. Should do this more.. Refreshed and relax..

** Yeah **

Break....

Yeah!!~~~ I WILL BE OUT OF MY OFFICE NEXT WEEK... Oh man.. I look forward for a few days of break so much and at last, it has come. These breaks are suppose to be a beautiful holiday but things change. And it’s ok, I can have fun too.

First thing, I gotta have a plan. Since I will be out of my office but still in the compound and with no transport, I shall start a check list of things that I should do but I don’t always have the time to do and also something out of the normal routine that I normal do.

1. Spend great time with God
2. Catch up with my bible reading
3. Plan next year goal
4. Finish a book
5. Sleep
6. Cook new stuff
7. Play online games
8. Watch movies
9. Plan coming Christmas presentation
10. Make Christmas gift in advance
11. Plan next year holiday
12. Study other churches stuff (Enlarge my knowledge)
13. Take some crazy photos for my blog

Hmm... I hope 4 days will be enough for me to finish those “out of normal routine” work.

Finger crossed hoping that I really have fun and get myself refreshed while doing it.

** Gonna take a break **

Good morning...

Good morning my heavenly father. Seeing a beautiful morning will make my soul praise Your name and count my blessing.

~ Faithful are You my beautiful king.
~ You are the prince of peace and the Lord of Lord
~ Heaven and earth bow before You
~ You are the most creative God that create this beautiful earth
~ Your name O Lord we praise and adore
~ Angels and Archangels cry out to You for You are holy and good
~ My soul rise up and praise You for You are a mighty God.

** Praise Him **

Yo dude....

This is so cute.... Totally....

** Yo dude.. Totally **

Chinese Food?

To be very honest... I don't really like Chinese food even though I am a pure Chinese. I like to eat bread but with too many of that, I will grow rounded. Recently with the need to change my lifestyle, I have to learn to cook. Low and behold, I found out that I don’t really like to cook. No wonder I don’t cook. Hehe...

To learn how to cook, have to start to pay attention to some of the mother’s tips. I have to go to book stores to find some cooking books, do online research about the cooking method and have to search some recipe in my Ipod. And because I am in love with a typical Chinese man which only likes Chinese food, so my research is only in Chinese food for this season. After i have master chinese food, i will manipulate him to eat non-chinese food with me. Hehehe...

So far, what have I learn? Seriously… not much… But am grateful that I am not learning it alone.

** Chinese food **

Cooking...

It’s been a very long time that I stop cooking until recently. Have to start to learn how to cook so that when the time has come, it will not be a major changes in my lifestyle.Hmm... Not bad...Through there are some failure in the fried rice, but overall, it is good.The egg is nice too... At least nicer than his egg..
And we enjoy the meal together.


** Cooking **

Exciting...

This is it... He is arriving in an hour time. Since until today we still can’t sort out the date, but from today onward we able to enjoy each other’s presence.

May God’s grace be sufficient for us as we enter another chapter of journey together.

** This is it **

I will miss long distance...

It’s been a journey of 2 years and 5 months. On and off, we have been travelling in order to meet with each other. I can’t believe that I said this, but I think I will really miss long distance.

Being apart from each other is really torturing. At the same time, we have learnt to enjoy it. Everything comes with good and bad, the same goes to this. I still remember that I cried most of the moment when we are departing and it took me at least two days to settle myself emotionally.

Being apart is a test, a test of faithfulness, commitment and communication. When things went wrong and both of us started to have work piling up, it is a test of commitment that do we still take out the small window of time to spend together even though we are tempted to use that small gap for a quick nap. Both of us have learnt a lot. I thank God for his grace that sufficient for us. Long distance used to be one of our biggest fears. Now, with God’s grace, we have tasted His faithfulness.

** I will miss... **

Giving up...

It is hard not to give up when you are not appreciated...
It is hard not to give up when people will only demand and not care...
It is hard to keep on hanging when I have no words in front of You...

** May Your grace be sufficient **

Last night prayer meeting

Ps Stella heard her youngest daughter, Deborah Lo prayed this when we are asked to pray for all the youth leaders;

“Lord, I pray for Jenny that she will be a good strong leader to the young people leading boys and girls to become men and woman that are Leader for God next time.”

A simple and powerful prayer that melt my heart. I think her prayer will be answered by God because I am sure that she melted God’s heart as well.

Precious...

On 13th July - 15th July 2010, i have a great time with them. Precious that the moment that we spent are priceless....
We went to cable car...And took some pictures about Langkawi..
It's such a beautiful trip and God is good..

Next trip... Bali perhaps?

** 1st Family trip **

Bonus...

Limited time in a tight schedule, we thank God that we can spend some beautiful moments together.

** Grateful **

Feelings….

Wearing your cloth hoping that I able to bring your presence closest to me.

** A close presence **

Blessed...

Grateful to know that after a long, tiring and stressful day, there is someone waiting and willing to hear about my day even we are far apart.

** Blessed **

Holidays

I have a few days of holidays which I long for it so quite some time. I really need a break so much and we went to the beach.
And a beautiful resort for a lovely sunset and walk.
** Get some rested holidays **

Siblings

I am so blessed that I have an elder sister and a younger brother. They mean a lot to me. Seeing them success and happy in their life is such a joyl. But to do that, lots of tears have to shed. At least today, I know all the prayers and tears worth waiting. Sometimes, we have to sow tears in order to reap a good fruit.
I am in a great joy to see my younger brother learning step by step to be a mature man. I pray that both of them will encourage each other and cling on to God.
** I love both of them **

It is sweet...

It is sweet to know that when I tell Him that I love Him, He reply me with a small voice in my heart telling me that I love you too..

** Sweet **

Tuesday day off…

A day off in starbucks with an iPod and a book.... What else I asked for more. I have a great day spending alone with my iPod and a book.

** A refreshing day off **

The opposite of love

Someone said this;

The opposite of love is not hatred but ignore and not caring for another person anymore.

** Kinda make sense **

Parenting Seminar

For past three nights, I went to a great parenting seminar. Coming back from the seminar, I called him and said I want our own baby. He replied, “Wow, that speaker is good. Coming back saying that you want baby.”

Couldn’t remember when is the last time I went to a parenting seminar and I enjoy listening to what other people experience in their parenthood. To raise kids, is more than just raising them up but to teach them to be a God fearing man and a great leader for the future.

It is indeed a good seminar with knowing and learning it in our preparation journey. I learned that a marriage decision is more important than any other decision is life. It is the most important decision. A happy marriage is heaven but an unhappy marriage is more than a disaster. Marriage is really a lesson to be learned for life. As I prepare, may God’s grace be sufficient for us.

I also learned that our life partner should be the most important person in our life and not our kids. So, gonna remember and learn that in the future. So, better drop this down. He should be my everything. Hmm… But we are not married yet but we are engaged, so, he should be my half everything.

** Parenting **

Psalms 91

He will cover you with his feathers and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.

Jenny Liau, you must always remember, security is in the Lord and in His wings, you will find refuge.

** Psalms 91 **

Facebook…

Facebook has been a very popular trend. It is like the latest news you can ever get about so and so is from facebook. Somehow, people will get addicted. Hmm… I guess I am one of them. To stop from facebooking which I also have no idea what I am doing there, I think I will take a break for awhile.

Just to spend some time on some books….Books that I have been touching but not reading.

** Gonna take a break **

A day to remember...

My mother is not a perfect mother. She has her weakness and strength. But I have learned to love her. Her faith has brought the whole family back to God and since very young, she taught us who God is.

I love you, mom… Thank you for being our mother.

** A noble mother is the greatest gift from God **

Can I have this? Please……….

When I saw this… I asked him. Can I have this? Please…….He said… NO!

Ask a few times of asking, his answer is still NO!

Now, I saw this… I asked can I have this? Please……. This is way cute man. #Credit to Beatrice that she found this picture and show me#

He said, Oh my gosh…. The sesame street shoes?

This is really cool… I wonder how it looks like when I wear on my feet. Where to get it? Hmmm….

This is just cool, don't you agree with me?

** Oh man.. What have got into me? **

Assumption

Assumption can bring many problems. We assume things will be done by someone when that someone did not do it because he/she assume that they will receive a clearer communication later.

With all these assume, everyone ended up rushing for no better reason. I was being taught after instruct must inspect. Unfortunately, some people assume and expect and when things doesn’t fall into pieces, pointing finger session will appear.

No wonder people agreed that assumption is the mother of all failure.

Assumption will not move things… Follow up and inspect, will….

** Assume**

Respond…

Q: Have you ever wonder, why God put you in such a position to do these? If He places someone else, the ministry might grow stronger and faster because someone else is better.


A: Ya, I feel that too.. I think that I am not God’s first choice. But because God’s first or second or third choice didn’t respond and I responded, so I am doing it.

The Q&A challenges me again…

** Respond **

25th April 2010, Sunday

I have a great day… a normal and simple day that I wished for. I cut my hair, friends that are close to me sang birthday song so loud after the service, received unexpected gift from unexpected friends and out dinner with just 2 beautiful and close friends.

With beautiful people that I love dearly around me for a simple meal and each of us enjoy the companionship of each other. What a great day… What else I want more? With that, I am happy and content and I couldn’t thank God enough for his blessing and love.

Thank you for those that remember… it mean a lot to me even it's only a greeting. Thank God for his great love and joy.

** Beautiful day **

A new me?

On my birthday... I did something that I never thought I dare to do... I cut my fringe.

Ta da…….Some people said I look like corn, jellyfish, weird, funny, cute, pretty, fresh, nice and the list goes one…

Hmm… I like the freshness, but don’t really like the style. So, no more next time I guess… but I am happy that I did it. The best part is, I gave him a surprise…. The best surprise ever… Hehe…

Instead of celebrating 26th birthday, i celebrate 21st birthday. They said i can look 5 years younger.

** A new me? **

Birthday…

Birthday can be very simple, very normal or very fancy. Well, almost every year of my birthday, I'll look up to the sky and pray that I have a cheerful day. Nothing much but to be happy for everything.

It's been 26 long years. Many people come and go in my life. Many come and impacted me to be who I am today. Some rebuke me so that I will be a better me. Some advice, teach, encourage and even crushed and disappoint me in every aspect of my life but I am grateful because with God placing them in my life, I learned to be matured and strong. I learn to rely on Him when I fail in any circumstances of life.
When someone ask me, who impacted your life the most? Well, I will said, along the way, many impacted me. As young as they are or as matured as they are, I learn from them. With a young heart, I learned to be genuine with your own feeling and faith like a child. As mature as they are, I learn their experience and listen to their advice so that I will my repeat what they have warn me.

Long 26 years... And yet a long way to go…

** Happy birthday Jenny **

Couldn’t resist..

Isn’t this cute?? I just couldn’t stop asking people around me when I saw this.

Haha… I think it’s really cute. Perhaps it can be use as my door gift. Or.. I might use blue and brown theme color just because of this. Isn’t this cute…

Hope that I can find someone that able to make exactly the same with this.

And not something that turn out to be…..


** The cookie monster Cup Cake is so cute… **

Sign of getting old?

Oh man… My back started to ache again. I remember the first time I feel my backache when I was 16 years old. Can you imagine.. such a young age, I started to feel that until now. Well, cannot deny that age is catching up and I will be celebrating 26th years old. Hmm… this year birthday will fall on Sunday. And I have taken out my date of birth from facebook. I guess when we started to grow older, celebrate birthday is not that fancy anymore. The best is, the less people know, the better. Wondering why I have such a thought… Anyway, I wish for a normal happy day. Perhaps a meal with some close friends…Or a day to know that God has answered my prayer….

I am going to be 26, oh man.. I wish I am 21. At least I don’t have to put on makeup, people will still think I am 18th. Hehehe.. A bit greedy for this kind of birthday wishes?

** With the limited strength that I have, I am reminded ….**

Learn to enjoy...

Last night conversation:-

Me: I am so stress with all these.. Planning, planning, planning and research, research, research and non-stop research

Him: Don’t so stress about all these.. Put everything aside and focus on what you should be doing now

Me: Sigh…

Him: Just enjoy… Enjoy being my fiancée now..

Me: Ok… I’ll enjoy… Erm… What a fiancée suppose to enjoy then?

Him: I don’t know….

Both of us: Hahahhahahahaha……………

Indeed, it cheers me up… and being reminded that I should enjoy even though I don’t know what to enjoy.

** Enjoy **

It’s been awhile…

It’s been a while that we have not yell at each other on the phone, couldn’t communicate, couldn’t accept the reason that are given, couldn’t understand each others point of view and have different perspective of our own. It’s really been awhile until last night.

Last night, I sat and feel the whole situation, the whole moment. Wow… it’s really been awhile and I almost forgot that sometimes, misunderstand do occur, couldn’t communicate do exist and pain for being in love is real.

I always love the reconcile part because it brings us closer and deeper in love… and I miss that.

With last night experience, we are reminded again to not to take each other for granted and learn to respect and honor each other with love.

** It’s has been awhile… **

Wedding list?

According to one of the website that I found while I help one of my dearest friends on her wedding, I found a checklist for the wedding preparation.

So, I kept one for myself too…. And according to that checklist, I have to list down the guest list way before the wedding, so the very obedient me, trying to list it down. Low and behold, I found myself having some headache….

The interesting part is there is no basic guideline about whom to invites. When I thought about asking so and so to my wedding, I worry that he/she will ended up sitting there alone because he/she doesn’t mix with my another gang of friends. That would be quite pity for him/her. Then should I invite or not invite? Oh man… This troubles me a bit. For those that are really close to me, be prepare to receive some of my phone calls asking you, should I invite so and so.

** Wedding list **

It bright my day

I found a software that able to do this... So happy and it brighter my day from a bad evening that i have yesterday..


** Happy already **

Rebuke

I believe that no one loves to be rebuke and force to face the ugly side of them. In life journey, we have to be rebuke in order to grow. Like it or not, rebuke and discipline is one of the way to show love. I don’t like to scold and rebuke as well but sometimes, it left me no choice. To keep certain high standard, I have to scold. To keep the level of quality, I have to rebuke. I don’t like scolding people as well. Most of the time, I ended up feeling guilty for scolding him/her. I always asked myself, who have I turn into? Have I turned into someone that no one like me?

Rebuke is one of the ways that you show concern and love. Hard to accept it but this is the fact. Because I love them … so, I care enough to rebuke them and want them to grow and be better in what they are doing. Unfortunately, not everyone sees the point. I rebuke them with love because I want to see them succeed in their life. If I don’t care, I won’t have rebuked them at the first place.

I hope he understands my heart that in order for him to succeed in life, I must rebuke and discipline him.

** Rebuke with love **

A dream comes true…

I used to imagine how would it be like? Who would he be? What would he do?

On 16th March 2010, I able to taste what the feeling of a dream come true.
We had a beautiful dinner in Euro Deli restaurant. I was kinda hoping for it. As I ate my food, I hope I will cut something more than food. Well, it ended up just a normal dinner with an awesome environment and tasty food. It’s a bit costly than what we normally had. But it’s alright since it’s a celebration dinner.

After dinner, we went to a park called small genting somewhere in Ampang that able to see the night view of KL. I love that place. We used to go there quite often before the long distance relationship happens because I love to see beautiful view at night. We have a great time talking about what we have gone through as a couple in the past three years and the breakthroughs for our path. The Lord is good… He always is… As we talked about the old memories, both of us are grateful and amaze how God lead us together.

As I looked at my watch, it’s half past 11pm. He looked worried and kept smsing. I asked him not to worry so much about work after the long meeting that he had. Later on, he said, why not we go to another place that can see the KL night view too. I get so excited and we depart to another the next place.When we arrived there, the view was amazing… with an open air restaurant and the beautiful view. I stared at the view while trying to catch my breath from the long walk from the bottom to the top. Then, his friend gave him a dozen of roses and with one knee, he ask me to marry him. I heard lots of cheer because the restaurant was pack with people. I was so embarrass and overwhelm and I was speechless. I nod my head and he stood up gave me a hug.

With no ring but an Ipod, we are engaged. How do I feel? I feel overwhelm and like a dream come true.Now, we are engaged. Another chapter of our life together… As for the date… We will let you know… It will be another beautiful day.

This will be one of the meaningful day that I will remember with the awesome view, beautiful place and lovely friends around us to be happy together with us.

** Just like a dream come true **

Happy Easter

The Lord is Risen... He is Risen Indeed.

p/s: No idea why rabbit got to do with easter...

** Happy Easter **

A testimony

My name is Jenny Liau. I was born in Sandakan, Sabah in an ordinary Christian home with a great family. I have an elder sister and a younger brother. I was brought up by my mom. Since I was a little girl, my mom brought us to church. I know more about Christ through the faith of my mother and the stories that are told in Sunday’s school. Since young, I was being taught that God is my friend.

But I have not truly known him as a friend because many times I talk to him, he remain silence and when I try to listen to his reply, I felt asleep.

I grew up in a church knowing what I should do and what I shouldn't do. Most of the times, it has been a follow the rules kind of attitude than knowing it in my heart what it really means.

Since I was a little girl, God has been in my life but we don't really have a close relationship. If you ask me do i love Him? I surely do. But do i know him? Well… not really.

I have most of the encounter with God when I start to step out of my comfort zone, when I have to be alone in a foreign place leaving my parents and all my friends. My relationship with God started to built because I learned that He is my only refuge and comforter.

One of the most significant encounters with God was when I went though my life deepest struggle and the darkest moment of my soul. My heart was broken and I feel that my soul is lost. I couldn't find my way back. It's scary to feel broken and lost.

In that moment, the Lord shows me His promise and his comfort. For it is written that a broken and contrite heart, He will not despise. I manage to feel it with my heart knowing that He is with me. Every steps of the path, He carries me. I can even visualize it knowing that He carry me on His shoulder and my tears drop to His shoulder. I can feel that His heart is even more pain than mine seeing me going through what I have to go through. He is indeed my true friend and my comforter. When I can finally walk myself again, I can feel that He put me down from His shoulder and He hold my hand with a smile on His face assure me that everything will be alright because He is with me.

With this encounter, anything that I am going through now, I will not be afraid because He is with me. This encounter had built our relationship, had made me stronger and had given me the eternal promise that God will be with me and He will love me with His everlasting love. For nothing will separate us.

The changes in me are not the dramatic type but God has slowly lead me step by step from taking care of my since I am a baby to leading me slowly to know Him and now serving Him with what I have, with all I have.

The Lord is truly my God, my best friend, my refuge and my stronghold. In Him, I find peace and joy.

** My Saviour is Jesus Christ **

Stuck

Sometimes, I get stuck. What to write next? What is the first word that should be put on it to make it sound more professional? Stuck… Man.. I hate it when I am stuck.. Have to find high and low for that one word. There are really thousands of words in English words but due to my limitation, I get stuck. Man.. This is not good.

Sometimes, words just float in my mind and I can write smoothly in less than ten minutes. Read more, read more… Inspiration come more.. Come more…

How to continue… Oh Lord, please give the words… I am literally stuck with words now.

People said read more english word and watch more english movie, your english will improve.. Trust me, i am doing that..

** Stuck **

Pictures...

I am blessed that He gave us the opportunity to serve Him together as a family. Though we are not perfect but we willing to learn to love each other as who we are.
Together, we go through tears and joy.A nice picture. How i wish the person next to me is another him.
** Family **