A very common discussion yet it’s a difficult topic.
A good friend of mine came back from Penang last week to pack up the things that she left behind last time. She’s now in a relationship…..So happy for both of them because both of them are good friends of mine. The guy plan to give her a surprise shock by meeting with her in pudu bus station while the girl totally have no idea about it because they planned to meet up in Sunway bus stop. When the guy found her, he sms me and said he has found her and now he will bring her home.
Awww…..so sweet. Follow up with the girl sms me and said that she was so happy that he gave her a surprise shock by picking her up in the Pudu bus station. I reply them and said, both of them so romantic that they walk together, holding hands…. Under the hot sun and by the time they reach home, they’ve already become wet chicken.
After the whole conversation, I sit there myself and have a short thought for a while. Being in love is always sweet, always happy and always beautiful. Your surrounding will become beautiful. No matter where you are, no matter what you do, things just seem to be right, thing just seems to be perfect as it is.
As I continue to ponder around and started to dream my “dream man”. A man without face (because I have no idea who should be my life partner that’s why for this certain of time, he has no face until I find him, I’ll replace the face back to my fantasy world) to be with me, stand beside me when I need him, walk with me when I need accompany, hug me when I’m sad and love me and accept me as who am I. Being in love is always sweet and comfortable.
The more I thought about being in a relationship, the more I realize that I am not prepare to be in a relationship right now. I’ve read a blog from a friend of mine title ring. He bought a new ring for her girlfriend as well as himself. In his blog, he mention about commitment. Wherever he goes, the ring will be in his finger, whatever he does, the ring is there. You open the door, the ring is there, he washes dishes, and the ring is there. In different point of view, that is what commitment means. Like it or not, the “ring” will stick with you and whatever you do, you have to do it together with the “ring”.
Right now, in this period of time…a very clear answer from God in different situations that God show me that I am not prepare to be in a relationship. I think I am not ready to step into another relationship as well. I just enjoy being who am I in this New Year, focus doing things that I’ve been called to do and enjoy life while I’m still single and available.
** Not Prepared **
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We shouldn't see things on its surface alone, but also things on other dimensions, and I knew that you will see and reach there one day, and you will realize how beautiful it is when all things come together. Grey or Yellow, they are colors, is not about us, is all about Him, no matter what, is an Art, keep painting, everyday, every minute, from above. Praise Him!
i receive an advice from a friend
"Let Go. Let God."
Time could reveal so much of our experience as we make peace with our past and grow fervently each day with our father.
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Anonymous: If can, i would like to know who are you. The message that you gave me and the message that i sent out are totally different thing. I said that i'm not ready to be in a relationship doesn't mean that i am not trusting Him. I still trust God and have faith in Him while i started to prepare myself again. I think we have miscommunication here. Anyway, i wish to know what you are thinking so, please feel free to come and meet me personally. Thanks ya.
Yvonne: My dear, i've already let go and let God. Well, i keep on wondering, is the message that i sent out create misunderstanding or my word are not clear enough. Well, i thank you that you drop by and wrote something here. I'm glad. I am ok...i am good... I still love God and trust Him with my all. What i want to say is, i am not prepared to be in any relationship right now and i still have faith in God... I believe that God has His timing. As for me, i think my timing is still not here for me to think about this...but to focus on what I've been called to do. OK dear?
Well Jennie, I'm someone who was just passed-by. I think you had misunderstood me, of course I believe that you are trust him. Doesn't really matter whether what I wrote is related to what you've post, in fact what I wrote does not necessary need to be related to what you have wrote. That is why I've said that you shouldn't look on things on it alone. But, try to look at different angle.
Anonymous: Thank you for dropping by and passing by. Appreciate that. Well, what you point out do make some sense. In fact, i should thank you for reminding me to look things differently. Maybe from different point of view and different angle, i able to see more and learn more. I'm glad that at least i know what's on your head because you shared.
Thanks... thanks for the encouragement. Do feel free to drop any comment in the future.
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