Have I not done my best?

Have you ever encountered where you are place in a position that you are helpless? Well, these two weeks, I have encountered it.

I can proudly stand before God saying that I have really did my part, did my best and yet people doubted my best, doubted my ability and pushing blame towards me saying that I should have look into that or in a sense, I should learn that.

Work has been a lot like hills and insufficient time for everything is already a normal thing for me and yet with all the expectation without telling, assuming without communicating…. Lord, you judge…

I have been screaming because of tension for past few weeks, screaming for not enough time and screaming for everything is so packed. When someone started to point finger and not understand the situation that I am in right now, I am sorry that I will explode also.

** Have I not done my best? You judge, Lord…. **