Live faith out

Faith… a huge word that everyone needs to learn and will never learns it fully until the day Christ return.

Last weekends, I spent my holiday in peace heaven. A wonderful place with cold weather (really cold), wonderful people and it’s up in the hill. I always think that some places that are higher can make me feel closer to God. At least I am a bit higher than normal days. Hihihihi.

So, in that camp, we learn about the doctrine of God, the real life and how to life live out with faith. We learn to have faith that trust God 100% and have faith in things that we cannot see. It’s kind of stress in that camp because everyone trying to run away from real life but we have to play this game called “life game”. This is really a life game. We play what we normally do in life. Study, look for job, work, get marry, and give birth. Those are the routine in life. I can’t believe that I have to face this rat racing thing in the camp together with my church member. Wow…. This is challenging.

Though out this life game, the real self of everyone appear on the surface. We can really see the real face of certain people. I can see the real face of myself as well. On thing that I want to go after, the way I view the point of life and the lifestyle of mine. I reflect back and I realize that I am someone that really needs simple life only. I need not so much money but just a good job, someone that loves me and want to get marry with me and we have a wonderful family and my life will be that’s it. My point of view for my life.

Some people chase after property, some people chase after money and some chase after pretty girls to get marry with. I got tempted with a rich guy in the game when I worked as an estate agent. This guy is rich and has a lot of property. I ask him to marry me, but he answers me, he wants pretty girls. So, I know that he do have the intention to go after beautiful lady.

There is a guy promise that he will marry me, so while I continue to work, I wait for him in the age of 29. By the time he wants to get marry with me, everything is too late because judgment day is here. When judgment day is here, nothing seems to have value anymore. A scary day….

In this whole process of life, it awakes me. Awake me to cherish every moment and to live life out with faith and in love with God. Today I can plan but tomorrow I can only walk with faith and trust in God. A cruel fact about life and about human but this is real life. This is reality. Time doesn’t wait for us to be good or wait for us to trust Him. After all, it’s our choice to choose which way we want to walk.

In this camp, I learn about suffering as well. Suffering is a necessity for ultimate perfection. Last time I don’t know why I have to endure pain and endure hurt. I only know that after I endure, I will become stronger. Now, I know why I am in pain last time and why God want me to go through life darkest time. I will only get to know more about myself, God and man when I go through life darkest time. I get to see who my true friends are, how weak I am and how powerful God is. Rev Lee said that; do not boast how strong you are when you are not in suffering because when suffering come, it shows how weak you are. This is so true, do not boast. I started to change the perspective of suffering and know the value of suffering.

Recently, I am suffering from toothache and skin problem as well. It’s driving me mad. I get frustrated easily, my emotion swing life crazy and I throw temper everywhere. Slowly, I calm myself down and try to take this as a challenge to trust and have faith in God. I know God will heal me and after this difficulty, I learn another level of faith.

To endure is always the hardest time. It required patients. I hope that things are ok soon enough but that can only be my wish. I still have to wait and wait. Only time can prove and test. Many things in life, I wish it could be faster, it could be sooner. It will never happen because of time. I can only wait patiently, have faith and trust in God. I never know how my future is. But, I dare to walk out with faith again, in trust again. No matter what pain or hurt I’ll get in the future, I know the Lord is with me. After all, life need to take risk to grow more mature.

**Live with Faith**