Sunday, May 27, 2007

It hurt God

Many times in life, you get so many weird things, things that you never thought and never expect before. My heart is in pain now. I think God’s heart is even more ache. Some people can throw down their principle, their faces or even their self respect just because of a sum of money. Some even throw away their times and relationships because of an amount of money.


Is that really matter to you that you rather throw away your self respect? Where is your self respect and principle?

People willing to do anything just for the sake of 5K. Is that worth? For some people, maybe it worth more than word can say because of their financial crisis. But if you already have enough, why would you do such a thing? Out of greediness? Out of pride? Out of desire?

For it is written in Matthew 6.24, No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money.

It is also written in 1 John 2:15, Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him.

If such a person willing to have this heart to go after God’s heart, it is a joy.

Lord, have mercy on us


Friday, May 25, 2007

Enjoy my day

Is such a refresh if every month you can calm yourself down and just to be with yourself. Spend some time to be alone, stay at home doing nothing or do the things that you like and watch the movie that you enjoy. After came down from Genting, I never really have a period of time for myself. Most of the time, I spend it with someone else. Went out to dinner, movie, fellowship, and church activities. Instead of busy life, I choose to calm myself down and spend some time with myself for two days. This is good… I feel refresh again. Know what I want in my life and who should I be with.
In these few weeks of busy agenda, I seldom spend time with my dear housemate. Not only I have busy plan because she has her busy period as well. So, we talk less; spend time of being together less. Ya, I know… we stay together. But most of the time, either she will not be at home while I’m home or the other way round. When we spend less time together, things seems to go the other way round than we imagine. Or maybe I’ve move on to the next chapter of life while people around me still assume that I am in the previous chapter. I know changes take time and it will need a lot of times as well.

Last night, I have a wonderful time with her again. Just to be with her, talk non-sense, eat together, be with one another and enjoy the time of being together. I have a good time with her. We talked and talked and talked and eat and laugh and encourage and be together. I’m always grateful that God sent her into my life. In fact, she gives a big impact in my life. I love her for who she is and she appreciate me as who I am. We love each other so much. Thank you for being with me and walk with me. I love you. Let's do that again.


Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Today's Word

Loving Out The Fear
by Jon Walker

All of you should be of one mind, full of sympathy toward each other, loving one another with tender hearts and humble minds. (1 Peter 3:8 NLT)

God enables us to love the fear out of one another.

We drive fear from our families and friends by loving one another so supportively that every one feels safe inside the group (1 John 4:18). This safety allows us to bring our humanity into the open, including all our pain and joy, our ups and downs, our victories and defeats.

It means you give to others the same uncommon safety Christ gives you – to be real, to be sad, to be messed up and confused, yet to be loved.

God challenges us to create a Christ-community where we love like our lives depend upon it (1 Peter 1:22) and where we can each “live and move and have our being.” (Acts 17:28)

We’re to weep as one and celebrate as one, caring for each other equally (1 Corinthians 12:25-26) as we comfort and confront, warm and warn, cherish and challenge within an atmosphere of supportive safety.

Loving the fear out of each other requires that we develop:

Tender hearts – We give support to each other because God gives us support, and we’re to encourage others with the encouragement we receive from him. (2 Corinthians 1:4) In the New Testament, the word ‘support’ can literally mean “to increase one another’s potential.” (Romans 14:19 NJB) We strengthen one another by extending love, instead of fostering fear, and we do that by offering relationships that are safe and sympathetic.

Humble minds –True humility focuses on the worth of others. We understand our value in Christ, and we understand that God shapes each of us for a unique purpose.

Godly eyes – Loving the fear out of our family and friends – in fact, loving the fear out of the world – means we see others for what they can be, not for what they appear to be now. Jesus called Peter a rock when the fisherman was still acting on impulse (Matt. 16:18), and God called Gideon a mighty man of courage when he was hiding from the enemy among piles of grain. (Judges 6:11-12) God calls us to encourage and affirm each other (1 Thessalonians 5:11), seeing those around us in terms of their purpose and mission in life.

So what?

· God enables us to love the fear out of one another. You can love the fear out of others, and you can allow the fear to be loved out of you.

· We exhibit tender hearts when we say to one another:
· It’s OK to have a bad day.
· It’s OK to be tired.
· It’s OK to admit your mistakes.
· It’s OK to say your marriage is failing.
· It’s OK to confess your addiction.
· It’s OK to share you’re scared.
· It’s OK to want a day away from your toddler.
· It’s OK to grieve this loss.
· It’s OK to doubt, to be confused, to cry.

· We exhibit humble minds when we say to one another:
· It’s OK to be happy you got a new car.
· It’s OK to celebrate that you got a huge raise.
· It’s OK to joyfully tell us you lost 17 pounds.
· It’s OK to say you won the sales competition.
· It’s OK to shout “Hallelujah!” because God’s presence in your life is so good.
· It’s OK to tell us these things because we will be as happy for you as if these blessings had come to us, and we will join you in hearty celebration.

I personally believe that love is supered huge and powerful. Love and hate is just a thin line. Some people said that so much in love could turn into hatred easily. Hate a person is so easy. All you have to do is just hate him/her. But to love a person truly and sincerely is always the toughest lesson. Love has to cover all. Covered weaknesses, bear with him/her, understand him/her and support him/her while you have no idea what on earth he/she is thinking and while you just couldn’t understand why he/she act this way. A friend of mine told me before, to truly love a person, you couldn’t support blindly but with wisdom. Well, I can say that I agree and not agree. I agree in the sense that it’s true, we can’t support blindly. While in another hand, I don’t agree as in, I support him/her because I trust God has His mighty ways for him/her. After all, I am just playing a role as a friend to love and support meanwhile I trust God is in control of everything as well. No one can choose which way we are taking and no one can control which way he/she should go. God always in control and God always there for us.

Love… the sweetest things that happen on earth and also the hardest lesson to learn. Fear not, God is love, so I can love too. The power of love is larger than we can imagine. Love never fails.

**Love can conquer all**

Sunday, May 06, 2007

Live faith out

Faith… a huge word that everyone needs to learn and will never learns it fully until the day Christ return.

Last weekends, I spent my holiday in peace heaven. A wonderful place with cold weather (really cold), wonderful people and it’s up in the hill. I always think that some places that are higher can make me feel closer to God. At least I am a bit higher than normal days. Hihihihi.

So, in that camp, we learn about the doctrine of God, the real life and how to life live out with faith. We learn to have faith that trust God 100% and have faith in things that we cannot see. It’s kind of stress in that camp because everyone trying to run away from real life but we have to play this game called “life game”. This is really a life game. We play what we normally do in life. Study, look for job, work, get marry, and give birth. Those are the routine in life. I can’t believe that I have to face this rat racing thing in the camp together with my church member. Wow…. This is challenging.

Though out this life game, the real self of everyone appear on the surface. We can really see the real face of certain people. I can see the real face of myself as well. On thing that I want to go after, the way I view the point of life and the lifestyle of mine. I reflect back and I realize that I am someone that really needs simple life only. I need not so much money but just a good job, someone that loves me and want to get marry with me and we have a wonderful family and my life will be that’s it. My point of view for my life.

Some people chase after property, some people chase after money and some chase after pretty girls to get marry with. I got tempted with a rich guy in the game when I worked as an estate agent. This guy is rich and has a lot of property. I ask him to marry me, but he answers me, he wants pretty girls. So, I know that he do have the intention to go after beautiful lady.

There is a guy promise that he will marry me, so while I continue to work, I wait for him in the age of 29. By the time he wants to get marry with me, everything is too late because judgment day is here. When judgment day is here, nothing seems to have value anymore. A scary day….

In this whole process of life, it awakes me. Awake me to cherish every moment and to live life out with faith and in love with God. Today I can plan but tomorrow I can only walk with faith and trust in God. A cruel fact about life and about human but this is real life. This is reality. Time doesn’t wait for us to be good or wait for us to trust Him. After all, it’s our choice to choose which way we want to walk.

In this camp, I learn about suffering as well. Suffering is a necessity for ultimate perfection. Last time I don’t know why I have to endure pain and endure hurt. I only know that after I endure, I will become stronger. Now, I know why I am in pain last time and why God want me to go through life darkest time. I will only get to know more about myself, God and man when I go through life darkest time. I get to see who my true friends are, how weak I am and how powerful God is. Rev Lee said that; do not boast how strong you are when you are not in suffering because when suffering come, it shows how weak you are. This is so true, do not boast. I started to change the perspective of suffering and know the value of suffering.

Recently, I am suffering from toothache and skin problem as well. It’s driving me mad. I get frustrated easily, my emotion swing life crazy and I throw temper everywhere. Slowly, I calm myself down and try to take this as a challenge to trust and have faith in God. I know God will heal me and after this difficulty, I learn another level of faith.

To endure is always the hardest time. It required patients. I hope that things are ok soon enough but that can only be my wish. I still have to wait and wait. Only time can prove and test. Many things in life, I wish it could be faster, it could be sooner. It will never happen because of time. I can only wait patiently, have faith and trust in God. I never know how my future is. But, I dare to walk out with faith again, in trust again. No matter what pain or hurt I’ll get in the future, I know the Lord is with me. After all, life need to take risk to grow more mature.

**Live with Faith**