How do you feel?

As I started to distribute our wedding invitation and I realize that many people ask me, “how do you feel?” I gave a very short and fast answer without thinking much, I said, “stress”. Some people will look at me and feel for me while some will give me the impression that, what for need to stress? Just enjoy… I find it a bit annoyed that people kept asking me that question but at the same time, I sit myself down and go into my emotions and ask myself, how do I feel as the date is nearer?

I think when Danny and I talked personally about the date is nearer, time is shorter, we feel very excited, happy, can’t wait and butterfly in the stomach because we went through a long way before this day is here. But when someone else asks me, I think I found it stressful because people around me are still giving suggestions and comments. Not that they are not good comments and suggestions but sometimes, I felt it is too much.

In this whole preparation, I realise that deep inside me, I just know that some friends when you ask them, they will help you with all their heart. Some will reject. Because I do not want to assume and I still asked nonetheless and at the end, it was what I expected. It is really hard for me to ask for favour because facing rejection is really not a very good feeling. With that, I rather do everything myself if I can than to ask for a favour.

Last night I have some time to spend at the Lo’s house while doing my DIY décor. Both Debra and Daniel wanted to help so much that they kept asking me, can they help. To not disappoint them, I taught them how to do it. They stood there, tried very hard and finally finished one and showed it to me and ask, “Jenny, very nice, right?” with full of confident. I said, yes… Very nice…

I was a bit reluctant to let them try in the beginning because I thought at the end of the day, I have to redo everything and that is even more time consuming but I was wrong. Both of them made it with all their heart and it is very nice. Because they are kids and their determine hearts are not as strong as adult, they help me to make 3 paper flower and they said, they are tired and they went off. But when they are doing it that time, I looked at them and thought; this is really nice that they try their very best to make the paper flower just to help us.

On my way home, I was reminded that God must be very pleased when we try our very best to do things for Him. At the end of the days, I think what matter most is our heart to Him.

** I get to see things that I don’t experience it every day **