It’s been a while..

It’s been awhile since my last update

It’s been awhile since the last time my soul feels so down

It’s been awhile since the last time I realized that I am so weak and small

It’s been awhile since the last time I feel so discouraged

It’s been awhile since the last time tears falling down without notice

It’s been awhile since the last time I hold all in and tell myself it will be alright

May the Lord sees all these and remembered what your servant has sacrifice for you…

** It’s been a while **

I’m pregnant…

This is the very exciting chapter for us as we are opening a new chapter in our lives. To be honest, we didn’t expect this baby but we trust God that He has His prefect timing and we are really grateful for this precious gift.

Up to today, I am in week 12 and 6 days. Throughout the whole pregnancy, it wasn’t easy. We found out about this pregnancy in a very early stage and I feel very fine by then… Just feel like normal and eat like normal. When I reach week 6, goodness me… I started to feel nausea and hardly manage to get up from the bed. The only position that I am comfortable with is lying down position. I hardly eat… hardly do anything. Sometimes I feel sick.. sometimes I feel weak.. sometimes I just feel like lying down and do nothing. Of course, lying down and do nothing is very boring. But I am grateful that I didn’t vomit and I hope the whole nausea process is slowly drifting away. I counted my blessing every day because I heard some people feel even worse than me and he period last longer than me. When I told them about my ‘evening sickness’, many agree that I consider the blessed one.

So, I am grateful… and truly grateful.

This is me in week 11. Sometimes my tummy is bigger, sometimes is smaller and now, there are comments that say I still don’t look like pregnant.

This is my baby second photo where the baby is in week 11 and 2 days according the doctor's ultrasound calculation. The baby is only about 4cm but the baby is moving actively inside. When we saw that, we were so excited and just amazed with God's amazing gift and creation. We are grateful that we are part of His creation. Doctor said baby is healthy and strong. I think every mom will be very glad to hear that from the doctor.

 Till then, that's all from us. Will update you guys again...

** Lives new chapter - Pregnant **

Carmen Lim

Danny and I loves this little girl so much... She is really cute.. She has grown a lot now...

I still remember when she's really young... 

This was taken when she's 8 months old if I am not mistaken...

This was taken last year November... She is about one year and 1 months old. 

Isn't she lovely and cute.... Just looking at the photos I am already missing her... She is so adorable. 

** We love this kid **

A story

Everyone has a story...

Every couple has a story...

Every family has a story....

Some are very nice story...

Some are not very pleasant story...

No matter what stories they are in each family, God has a purpose...

With God, he can turn ugly to beauty...

He can turn unpleasant to pleasant...

Some stories that we see in drama series will turn to become real life stories...

And when we heard those stories that happen in the lives of someone close to us, it wasn't pleasant at all...

Hearing some of these stories reminded me again not to judge anyone without knowing their stories... They might have a very difficult story... They might have a very painful story...

Christian or non-Christian, leader or priest, man or woman, we are all fallen human being trying to live a life under God's grace and mercy, trying our best to love one another... But there are times we fail, we need extra grace, extra mercy and extra love. Who are we to judge when God is the ultimate judge. A hand to lift them up is more meaningful than a finger that point at them. 

No matter what stories, I always believe God has a purpose, God has a reason and He always can turn ugly to pretty and His plan is always the best. 

** A story **

Gianna Lim

                                    

As you all know that Grace Li is my one and only best friend... And last month, I manage to grab a few days leave to spent some quality time with her and her new born baby girl, Gianna Lim... She is so gorgeous and cute... Just before I meet Gianna personally, her mom send me her picture and I've already fall in love with her. When I meet her, she's just so adorable and I wish I can see her grow like I see Carmen and be in her life and she will grow up knowing that I'm her mom's best friend and I love her so much. 

That smile of her can just melt my heart straight away. When I hold her, she's smiling with me when I'm talking to her mom... That moment is just priceless... I think any parents will trade anything to just see their son or daughter smile.

                                 

The short 4 days going back to Sandakan and hanging around with her and Gianna is wonderful. I hope we will have more of that hangout in the coming future. 

** She's really cute **

I guess it's worth keeping

I've been thinking to stop blogging and delete this blog because there are lots of social network now such as Facebook (though I hardly share myself on fb), twitter, Instagram and so on. Thinking to delete it, therefore I've stop updating it. But tonight, I wish to get back some of my info in the past that I hardly can remember, so I check it out in my blog and realize that this is actually worth keeping and updating. Just reading back my own blog myself has encourage me a bit. Seeing how much we have grown in the past, how much Carmen Lim has grown and how young we were back then... The journey of going through something has written it down has also been a great encouragement to me.

Well, partly I wanted to delete this Blog also because of the word 'blog'. Just hearing the word, I feel a bit annoyed. Anyway, don't want to go into that now... 

So, hopefully I got update what's new for the past few months... Definitely lots of stuff to write.. I'm glad that I can cultivate this habit back. Sometimes to clear my head and put it in writing is not a bad thing after all.

** worth saving**

Motivation

Sometimes, you just need to get some extra motivation to get your keep working on to where you have plan your goal. The same goes to me…
 

Found this and find that it can keep me going. Plus those stories of success are just so inspiring and giving assurance that every hard work, surely there will be a good result.  

Tips: You have to love what you do in order to keep on doing it every day…

 

** Motivation **

 

One of the New Year resolutions

One of it is to learn how to bake a cake. Well, I do not have an oven now, so, gonna fulfilled it with trying a no-bake cheese cake as I heard a lot of people said that it is so easy to make.

Therefore, as I do research on it, I found this…

 

Nutella Cheese Cake. … Just looking at the picture I can taste the delicious of it… But when I watch youtube on how to make one, my goodness… It goes up to 700 calories per slide. Whoever that eat this cake is seriously gonna gain lots of weight.

Anyway, I think I still gonna try to make it and have a bit of it and the rest of it, will share with everyone… Finger crossed and hope I success…

** If success, one check on the New Year Resolution **